Panic ! With The Manic

Thank You

2010-02-03T16:32:00.000-08:00

Who deserves more thanks but You ?

Yours truly

Untitled .

2010-01-01T13:31:00.000-08:00

Now what if you (being a guy) didn't have the killer suave and charm of some Mr. McDreamy ?

What if you didn't have the skill on that piece of wood called a guitar coupled with that warm husky voice like Jason Mraz ?

What if you couldn't write poetry or novel-long letters like Shakespeare did to his male lover ?

What if some uber poor folk somewhere rather chose to die of hunger than to eat your food ?

What if you didn't exude power and presence from your very pores like Chuck Bass ?

What if you had the confidence of someone who would paste on himself post-it notes saying "kick me" just to save everyone the the trouble of doing it for you ?

Well , you're essentially screwed la .

How now brown cow ?

I apologise if you coincidentally fall into the group above and just for your information this isn't meant to help further bury a person's head into the ground nor is it a quickie guide to instant hotness-for-men .

Honestly , I have no idea what this post is about but I suppose this is solely a (abstract) channel to pour out my teenage angst (of which is my final 9 months of that is..) to kick start the new year . And I , like many others find myself in that long lists of what-if-you're not's ?

So being a troll versus being terhebat (sorry couldn't find a proper alliteration la - England not so powderful) . What exactly happens ? Well all I can say is that there's bound to be a trail of casualties left in the wake of being slammed with reality in your face . That you just ain't good enough . And many of us poor souls can't help but just be a casualty of "The List" . The List that grades you as a Do or a Don't . A Victim or a male Vixen .

Is he good looking ?

Is he funny ?

Is he rich ?

Does he drive a Porsche ?

Does he mix with the "in" crowd ?

Whatever it may be or however long it may be . Men all over the world dread ; "The List" .

So in this New Year , my fellow comrades in this ever losing war to win that dame , what in the world do we do ? Simple . In war , never retreat nor surrender but be smart to realise when you've been smacked down by defeat la . Such persistence is only as good as pushing a tonne of bricks ! Chilling la ! Just go for it . Have fun courting , have fun asking the girl out , have fun just going shopping with her for that gorgeous pair of shoes . Let go , let loose .

Men nowadays - me counted of course . So uptight about everything . Every rustle in the leaves , every trickle of water into the puddle - made to seem as though Malaysians decided to stop exporting food out of their kitchens (that surely is a fate far worse than death !) .

Though we may seem to always fall short of "The List" (be it concocted by the opposite number or even our own feeble , shallow minds polluted by the media today) , the male gender was designed to be of thicker skin and by mere nature of being human , we're meant to adapt and evolve into being more adequate for whatever problem arises that the edge that we're so close to , gets pushed a tad bit further .

So now , time to suck it in ! And go kick butt but don't be so desperate to score ? Life is so much more than "The Chase" (which is another story for another time) . In a nutshell - just chill la joe !

Remarks :
-Now , all you boys and girls don't go running to mummy and telling on me aight ? I'm just pitching my piece however true it may be .
-This is probably one of the most pointless posts this blog has ever had the priviledge of spewing .
-This post is directed to no particular person nor to the general community .
-What inspired this post ? The transition into 2010 being more of a daze than anything else .

With this , I present to you 2-0-1-0 .

Happy new year ya'll ! : )

Yours truly

IT'S CHRISTMAS !! which also means the end of the year . XD

2009-12-27T19:37:00.000-08:00

Okay okay I know I haven't been blogging much though it's the holidays and all . But what the heck right ?! Just for kicks .

Anyway to my scarce readers if there are any but few , here's what I got from Christmas this year .

A verse from a carol .

A verse from the book of Isaiah .

And the 4 names given to Jesus from the verse from the book of Isaiah .

First the carol .

What can I give him , poor as I am?

If I were a shepherd I would bring a lamb ,

If I were a wise man I would do my part ,

Yet what I can I give Him — Give my heart .

Now the verse from Isaiah 9 : 6

For to us a child is born ,
to us a son is given ,
and the government will be on his shoulders .
And he will be called
Wonderful Counsellor , Mighty God ,
Everlasting Father , Prince of Peace .

The 4 names given by the prophet Isaiah .

Wonderful Counsellor , Mighty God , Everlasting Father , Prince of Peace .

What more can I say ? For His name is His character .

Set la .

Awesome possum .

Happy Christmas everyone and if I don't tune in anytime soon , happy new year and have a great 2010 : )

Yours truly

And another...

2009-11-27T20:11:00.001-08:00

Still alive ^^

Yours truly

I Miss Malaysia

2009-11-11T18:21:00.001-08:00

I watched Les Miserables .

I had super spicy food just now .

And cos of the suuuper spicy food , I miss Malaysia now .

How can you not love Malaysia and Yasmin Ahmad ?

Yours truly

Thoughts ? What thoughts ?

2009-10-23T18:05:00.001-07:00

Point is.. Epic phail .

Yours truly

Poised~

2009-10-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

Hey !! Well it's been a while and I have good reason for that or maybe not..

I am in London now .

And I only have to thank the biggest dude upstairs who's been looking out for me all this while .

There's sooo much to say and sooo little time to do it . I guess being in Imperial has its insanely gila aura la having had to hit the ground running the moment lectures started on Monday . Nevertheless , I feel that I am truly happy and thankful that I allowed God to take control of the whole England thing to even choosing my course for me .

What happened was , I missed out mechanical engineering because I didn't get an A for Further Math by one mark . So what happened was that Imperial gave me counter offers and one of them was materials engineering and the other biomedical engineering . And I chose biomedical engineering not just because it sounded gila cool but it resonated with me . I guess there was always a desire to be a doctor but I never could because I'd be too grossed out but now in this field I can be as important and yet not get grossed at the same time ! XD But yeah.. who knows eh . I'm just glad things have turned out as it is and then now is my time to do my bit for His glory as well .

London has been a great many things . And many people have illustrated it with their pictures of their first week in London and what not (I have too.. but it's on Facebook so yeah..) but I guess all I can say is that on one hand I'm petrified beyond belief and yet on the other I'm just taking it as it comes assured of the fact that I'm being taken care of .

So with that , I shall leave you with a couple of pictures so as to not totally deprive this post of..

All Soul's church London . Pointy...

Riley , Alexis , Sim and me ! Hong Kong , Hong Kong , Korea and Malaysia : )

But yea , with that I just wanna like make a big shoutout to all those whom I so wish I could pack in my bag and bring along ! You guys have been awesome , your prayers treasured , your kind words cherished , though we may be oceans apart - we are no further apart at heart..

cehh... haha ! XD

If you're sitting for your STPM , SPM , Medical Exams , A-Levels exams , driving test , facebook iq test and what not.. All the best ! You guys have my love and my wishes to do the best that you can !

Well anyway , cheers and God bless ! : )

Lots of Love from London

Yours truly

Happiness

2009-08-26T13:53:00.000-07:00

If happiness was something you had to fight to attain , to gain it is to pursue with all you have until you have it in your hands even if it means ripping your heart out , then by golly.. I must be the luckiest person on earth because though the world may crumble at my feet , though I may have missed out by 1 mark to get an A for further maths , though I may still be single (haha - I still can't wait to get married !) , though the prospect of going to Imperial is only a slight glimmer of flickering hope , I am genuinely happy .

Okay fine.. Not the most flattering picture of me but I certainly do look happy right ? Or it might have been the alcohol smiling but who cares ! Well we have the pro-drinkers in this picture with half of Jack (Jason) , Mouse (Seng Tuck) and Fridayflow (Me) from left to right of course . Courtesy of Li Ling's camera (all the best in HK !) .

I have so much to be happy about but one of the things I thank God for most are for the gift of friends .

4 drinking parties , 1 prom , 1 trip to Melaka , 1.5 years in college , 2 sleepovers , 2 different physics lecturers , 3A's and 1B later , I have to say that I certainly have made an eclectic repertoire of awesome friends .

To those I still hold sooooo dearly out of college , gosh you guys know who you are . Whether you may be down under or up above , I miss you heaps !!

Even friends that I may have made in the past week.. or the past 2 weeks.. or the past 2 years..

You all have my love .

This is definitely one of those revelations I get of how easily I get gripped by a flood of emotions and just love the fact that I can love !

Yours truly : )

The one and a half years that was.. O.O

2009-06-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

Hola !

I have finally found time from the insanity raving around me to blog . And the insanity is just going on and on and on that I'll have to keep this short cos' my next insanity rave involves drying the clothes !! XD

Then off to 1U I am..

Anyway exams were only over last Tuesday and since then it feels like it's been ages since I had my last exams .

The exams ended with a really megalomaniacal trip to 1U , sushigroove and Transformers ! Which was only awesome because of the company I had .

The next day was prom shopping in 1U initially for Ying's dress which ended up in and out all over the bush whereby to the point that I left without getting a dress or a clutch or anything but takoyaki and okonomiyaki ! Which was also awesome only because of the company !

And then the following day , BALL !! Haha.. It was the bomb la seriously , not that the ball or the food was any spectacular - more so to the cliche normal side . But if you actually have the chance to savour the food or have time to criticize the venue and all , it means you're not having a good time ! Because it was all because of the company which made it all sublimely perfect !

The night (or the morning I should say) found me in MOS !! Stellar I tell you . It was physics in motion . Believe me , it wasn't the alcohol that made me go skyhigh ! I guess it was the sheer atmosphere , the massive crowd , the insanely loud trance blasting out of the speakers , the vibrating dance floor that made your entire body just tremble with excitement - it was cool.. No words , no words could fully encapsulate the entire experience !

Anyway , all that talk about my awesome company is just awesome la . You know why cos' after I dry the clothes - we're off again ! Can't superly wait !!! We studied hard and now.. we play hard !

Carpe diem ! (Seize the moment !)

P.S. It was only one beer.. And pictures.. err Facebook la !

: )

Yours truly

And then there was two..

2009-06-18T10:03:00.000-07:00

Doesn't the picture look familiar ?

It's the main entrance of Wisma HELP !! Blardy.. Now I know why we got the tear gas effects .

I had to pee in the toilet with my nose and mouth feeling all fuzzy !

Right before an exam !!

Nevertheless , quite cool though , now I can say , "I kena tear gas before !" though a rather painful experience I would rather not go through..

2 MORE PAPERS !!

Further maths...

O.O

Yours truly

bane

2009-06-10T10:17:00.000-07:00

do away with this
please do away with this
with each passing day my life just ebbs away
long have i felt the wind in my hair
distant the grass from my feet
surreal , the pen in my hand

this plight , burden , torn curtain
do away with this choke hold

yours truly

Northern Downpour

2009-05-25T06:16:00.000-07:00

Finally here's one for the namesake of my blog - Panic ! At The Disco's Northern Downpour .

Credit to Jun for the exposition to this song . Just love it..

Don't mind the video.. It's just that the sound quality of this is really good .

And you need to hear Brendon Urie's voice in its highest quality cos' it rocks !

Yours truly

Not over till the fat lady sings

2009-05-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hey : )

First week of exams over and done with . Verdict - Could only do so well only by His grace . For the physics practical like oh em gee , ei bee see !! Nearly got screwed over by my lab partner but albeit the several bumps in the practicals managed to pull through enough la which is certainly all by His glory ! All but one exam retakes have been sat for which I believe went well : )

Anyhow , HOW IN THE WORLD DID ADAM LAMBERT NOT WIN !!?!

One of the mysteries of life I tell you . Nevertheless , he still rocks my socks and I'd queue up to go to his concert if I had a chance .

Today , I went for a very much needed LRT ride . For the benefit of those who don't know what it's all about , it really is very simple . It's just grabbing the LRT take the train from one end (the nearest being the one in KJ) all the way to the end (Gombak) and back ! Quite the lifeless ? Nah ! It's really about enjoying the little things around you that one may tend to take for granted . And besides , this time round I had unlikely company in the form of Jebat Kee - who's like super cool la , really . Props to him for just going for what he feels best make him but anyone else lest him . Superly all the best to him !

So today's solo ride had company a quarter of the way but the rest of the ride was really enriching in an odd way . You attract attention from people because you don't leave when everyone leaves at the end of the road , you get squashed because someone with extremely broad shoulders sit next to you , you start to notice everyone peering over just to see what you're reading (physics for that matter today) makes the entire experience one everyone must go for , especially if you're gonna leave for England come September.. XD

I think the enriching part wasn't during the ride but after the ride like well , now ! I stand at a point where I ask myself if I've done enough for Him ? I hope so . Nothing is ever done without any consequence now , everything done will surely come back knocking on your door be it for the better or the worse . Freaky isn't it ? Life I feel really isn't defined by the actions but by the consequence of the actions . I mean when the Nazis wiped out the Jews during Holocaust or when America nuked Japan , so what ? It's what it caused.. the millions of deaths that shook the world , the wars that followed that sorta thing.. From the big picture to the measly microscopic view on ones life , not much of a difference if you really look at it .

So what does the LRT trip to Jebat's company and the Nazis have in common ?

I have completely no idea .

Here's me trying my best to link random sporadic thoughts like linking mosquitoes with melting ice cream together with a bank robbery ;

How many of us actually get the chance to go and do what we actually love ? Like how I would anytime rather be a concert violinist or an orchestra conductor . Not a lot . Does that mean that life has not been lived out to its fullest ? Does that mean that life has lost its meaning ? Just because our dreams were not made real does it mean we're gonna have to be living life in complete futility ? (This is by no means a mockery to the people who've gone out to live their dreams or those who didn't manage to alright..) I really don't know . But what I know is that any life lived for God will never be futile . That everything that we do for Him will never be for nothing . For what gain is it if a man gains the whole world but loses his soul ?

I remember once during CF , Pn. Julie was saying that if time was represented by this super long line ________________________________________ , our time spent here on earth would just be this dot . in the entire long line of time that is infinity .

"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose."
Jim Elliot

If life was lived out for Him , the little that we have would be a lot and the a lot that we have would be lived out as if we had little . A life of worship , glorifying the Risen King all of which at the end when He comes back again to tell me , "Well done my good and faithful servant" . That my dear scarce readers would be a life lived full .

I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 3:14

I don't know what to say but the little that I have Lord take it and use it . The gifts that I have Lord , enable me to glorify You with them . Many times I have failed You and failed over and over again countless of times , true to the words I have sinned and fallen short of Your glory . Yet Lord God , grace you have never ever lacked , so these exams Lord along with every other road block in life I claim as a victory for Your glory that at the end of every bit of misery , every tear and every ounce of hardship I suffer I will be renewed with the hope that my every longing only You can fully fulfil . Lord , let this life of mine be marked by Your humility .

Yours truly

23

2009-05-11T21:49:00.000-07:00

AAHHHH My new theme song.. Enjoy !!

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...

Yours truly

Sibelius is a Genius

2009-05-10T19:34:00.000-07:00

That's all I wanted to say .

Yours truly

Is it enough ?

2009-05-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

Fuhhhh... I've been like sooo the busy .

Today , I think Janice tapped me on my shoulder . And all I did was look up and say , "Hi !" (If you're reading this , sooo sorry ! - Google Reader.. I remember ^^)

Anyway on a lighter note , I really believe it'll all fall into place good and in God's timing (and no it's not just because it's the Christian thing to say.. Things really are falling into place) .

Yearbook's coming along fine .

Mocks are gila insane - Unit 6's (Physics and Chemistry) were designed to drill holes in your brain .

I'm gonna level up in Mousehunt (4 more % to Hero !!)

I so super duper miss Kye Ling heaps of truckloads of mountain highs of oceans of missingness .

Ying's going to the ball !! XD

Exactly 13 days to my first A-Levels Final exam (18th May - 23rd June) .

Baby Tan's Big Tan and Jack are gonna be my partners in crime tomorrow as we make our escapade with Chemistry .

Everything is just.. perky : )

One thing I so covet now - prayer ::hints::

Yours truly

Arms High and Hearts Abandoned !

2009-04-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to YOU surrendered
All I am is YOURS

YOURS Truly

Of Tweets , Shrills and Screeches

2009-04-24T07:18:00.001-07:00

Here's another for the list of 3 from the previous post ! Oh my goodness , I just watched it and I think on the day of my wedding , I'd probably cry at the sight of my future wife walking down the aisle . Habis la.. Anyway besides the point , a super duper cute movie in tantamount fashion and Katherine Heigl ? Who doesn't love her ! She's just so beautiful . So totally not the movie for a person who so cannot wait to get married cos' it's literally all about it . Full of moments that made me tweet , shrill and screech (on the inside - or people might've think I've gone nuts) and I'm sure you would too . Truly , if you're a hopeless romantic in the mood for some cliché but not sooo clichéd love story , you might want to empty your wardrobe to make room for..

27 DRESSES !!

I promise this will be the last of its kind . I certainly have to try~!

Yours truly

Swayed

2009-04-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

Yeellow !

Okay , if you're like so totally lovesick and just all about aih , "I need a love life" and "I wanna get married" , like a certain someone , say... ME !?

These are so totally not the movies to watch .

A handful of fantasy , a pinch of humour , a spoonful of swordplay and a whole lot of STARDUST guarantees to give you the perfect concoction of an enchanting love story guaranteed to keep you on the edge of your seat and make you go , "Awwww.." at the end of it .

Hilariously adorable , sure to make you tweet at the sight of episodes you'd wish a simply perfect love story to unfold like - mostly yours . Full of wit , I'd say a stroke of genius . Definitely , Maybe ?

Now for en finale , probably my all time favourite love story . Set in what may seem the epitome of the phrase 'hustle and bustle' you'll find yourself in a little world , a little place , a simple world , a simple place , in as the title suggests a world we may live in - Little Manhattan . A story of the perfect innocent first love . Such subtlety , such grace in the way the story unfolds itself almost unmistakably mundane you can almost say and at the end of it , only two words found at the tip of your tongue ; simply breathtaking .

Oh love , so easily mistaken for loathing . So subtle , so gentle , so unpredictable . Is it an action ? Is it a feeling ? Is it a whirl of emotions ? Is it mere thoughts ? I guess , all of it is all of love . Such is love that words cannot express it . Such is love that one would scour the Earth , swim the seven seas and fly to the four corners of the Earth just to find it .

I guess no one can fully capture the full essence of love . No one . Not Shakespeare and all his sonnets to his male lover . Not Chopin and all his sonatas that resonate with passion and emotion . No , not man , not woman , lest one .

1 Corinthians 13

¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

And for that , I am swayed..

Hope you had a very blessed Easter .

Yours truly

Certainly something you don't come by everyday...

2009-04-16T04:14:00.000-07:00

Now , here's the lo-down ;

Someone's threatening to sue the HELP A-Levels Yearbook .

And guess what , I'm the Editor-in-Chief ! That places me in the direct line of fire weih !!

I can't unveil the details out here like this just in case it's used against me so yar..

Soooo exciting !! WOOO !

Super syok sendiri .

Anyone willing to donate their services as a pro bono lawyer ?

Yours truly

Hmmm..

2009-04-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

I cannot help but wonder why people click on the random links that show when chatboxes start popping up ?

HELLO...

It's like screaming

TROJAN !!!

Yours truly

So cute.. Baby Tan.. Weihh... Don't say...

2009-04-02T10:04:00.000-07:00

In my amazing class , some of us tend to say things on a more repetitive basis .

My classmates would know that the title is basically Adrian Tan in a breath .

I think it's hilarious to say it all in one shot .

For me , it's , "AHHH , FAT COW !!"

Another random thought in the musings of Panic ! With the Manic .

So anyway , I got Imperial . Now , I have to slog to get there - like seriously slog !

Oh and also amass about RM900,000 to cover everything for 4 years in Imperial which not even I know how .

I really should consider the robbing-a-bank option .

Time to go get the balaclavas and the crowbar~!

Yours truly

Updates !!

2009-03-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

So as to cover everything , not to waste time and not to leave anything out I shall update you in the form of key words la . Happy filling in the blanks !

CF CAMP - amazing - God - awesome - Pr. Julie - AHHHH !!! -CF-ers - adorable - Martin - Ryan - Stanley - Andrew - Boo Kean - Ryan - Hui Wei - Richard - Wan Teng - and everyone else I missed - Form 1's - zipper open - pants too tight -HUGE CICADAS - gross - missed bus - cable car - Phui Yi too - bread passing game - Hui Ying - messiest - sessions - cool - new experience - pray for young ones - move mountains - God's presence - all over - inside out - outside in - weather nice too - run up to top and down - no air - difficult

Last night - "barbeque" - Wai Yan's place - indomee cooked over charcoal - mega super salty chickened salt - normally it's salted chicken - chickened salt - once in a lifetime experience - picbeque - Wai Yan - super fail - housewife - cut wedding ring finger - fruits - I cut - super chun - company uber cool - Elaine uber sampat - what a night

Work - a lot

exams - soon

Imperial - still pending

Mr Khoo - still punching

Classes - fun

Jun - birthday - funny - he hates it

Our G-O-D is B-I-G - still madly in love with Him

I think that about wraps it all up . Cheers then : )

Yours truly

Dumb and Dumber ?

2009-03-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

When I logged out of my hotmail and got redirected to MSN Malaysia , the first few words I saw were ; Malay - math - riot - tear gas . The first thought that came to mind was woOOt ! The government is changing back the Science and Math thingy to Malay and yes la the public should riot (heck I'd even join) .

Then , I paid a little more attention and found out that the entourage was to bring a petition to get the math and science reverted back to Malay to the Agong !

Nuts .

Once I debated about this topic , and we found out that at least 50% of scientific resources were from countries which were English based thus written in English . Another about 30% were from countries not based in the English language like Eastern Europe (Russia , Germany) but were written in English .

Anyone interested in studying in a canggih manggih university or even dare to dream or try and apply for them ? Say Oxford , Cambridge , Princeton , Imperial , Yale , MIT , UCL or some place closer to home but are highly renowned like NUS or NTU ? Guess what ?! The science and math courses are in ENGLISH !! Oh my goodness , I'm not sure about the local universities' teaching methods la so I shan't comment but even UTAR and KTAR have them in English !

I mean it's not to say that the Malaysian education system is any good either . I personally believe that it impedes creativity (i.e. to get an A for karangan or essay writing - you must know about 10 peribahasa or idioms and revolve your entire essay around it and know the standard points for various social issues and stuff) , encourages social dissension (by forcing non-muslim students to take Moral) , promotes horrible mentalities (to succeed in life you need a string of A's or else you'll fail and that the purpose of education is to only score A's) and teaches wrong stuff (the Chemistry we learn in high school is wrong) .

However the best thing is the if-you-can't-do-well-we'll-lower-the-mark-for-an-A-or-we'll-just-send-you-into-space . Like seriously.. I've seen in SPM slips people getting an A1 for English and in the 1119 English column get a B4 - not to mean this as an insult to people with that result but more so to underline the fact that we're encouraged to not excel . Why else do you think , in the SPM certificates they no longer include the 1119 English ! Moreover , to pass in Additional Mathematics , the passing mark is as low as 6% ? Goodness , just look at the formula book and copy formulae 6 times for 6 different parts and you can already pass !

And the most decent thing out of the catastrophe that is the Malaysian education system is the announcement that English should be the medium of teaching for Science and Maths . Thank you Tun Dr M for that little glimmer of hope .

Like seriously , only 2 Asian countries can enforce their language into world culture with Malaysia not being one of them and that is Japan and China . Japan because they are so technologically advanced and China because they are like the world's biggest trade avenue and their number is so numerous that all over the world Chinanese have permeated every level of society (the Australian Prime Minister , Kevin Rudd's family is part Chinese) .

How la ? Maybe I should try out as Education Minister . Anyone with half a brain could do a better job for goodness sake !

After high school , you realise certain things along with some of your friends . We hardly ever use Malay anymore apart from ordering Mamak (which I believe is very important - you need to able to order your teh ais right man !) . To quote the Nur Amalina case of having to get out of university and return to Malaysia to study because her English was inadequate is just another gorgeous icing to the already very scrumptuous cake of lunacy of reverting back to Malay .

The day we revert Science and Maths back to Malay - this nation would have just committed intellectual suicide .

Yours truly

Have you ever..

2009-03-07T04:59:00.001-08:00

..had the feeling that you were just trying so hard to please everyone ?

yours truly

Everything

2009-03-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

Oh my goodness ! This is one YouTube video to watch ;

Like seriously , I welled up watching it .

Really is amazing ; God's love for us . That He gave us EVERYTHING and yet , we fall to our worthless whims and temptations . And that is what sin does in our lives , it enlarges us and downsizes God !

In the midst of all that , Jesus still LOVES us for who we are that He'd exchange places with us . But guess what , Jesus didn't just exchange places with us , taking sin upon himself , no much more than that ;

HE CONQUERED IT !

He who breathed life into us , gave us all that we desired - love , providence , peace . Till sin encroaches - lust , greed , peer pressure , pride and attention - draws us slowly but indefinitely away from Jesus that it becomes so hard we think we've lost everything that we resort to other "solutions" . Yet , He never stops pulling our hopeless and worthless self (black top) back to Him that we might find hope and salvation (white top) and on that cross He exchanged places with us and conquered sin and death . Now ain't that the good news ?

Really brings to mind the verse we all know so well from the book of John ;

John 3:16
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only begotten son that whosoever shall believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life .

God bless !

Yours truly

That phase again ?

2009-02-24T07:00:00.000-08:00

Oh dear , I'm currently like super addicted to that super addictive song by Beyonce who is by the way ze bomb and Katy Perry least of all~!

As a guy , an addiction to "If I Were A Boy" and "I Kissed A Girl" is just baaaaad in every sense of the word I tell you .

The latter - okla , the title seems alright but if you really hear the words , it's a lesbian song ! And and and IF I WERE A BOY ?!

NEED I SAY MORE !?

Oh , I'm addicted to Gossip Girl too.. GG la . Chuck Bass . Rocks . XOXO . Period .

shucks .

Well , another random thought from your friendly neighbourhood friend ?

Yours truly

Livin' La Vida Crapola

2009-02-04T10:38:00.000-08:00

Hello Upper-Eastsiders !

This just in ; never try to take your mind off something you want to by doing further maths unless you're really super brilliant at it and find it relaxing to do further maths la !

Cos' when you're emo , doing further maths does help but when you get stuck at a question - there she goes... there she goes again.. racing through my head..

Exhibit A - Here I am now at 2.50 in the morning . FAT COW !

How la ?

XOXO

Yours truly

Try to stop this beat..

2009-02-01T11:12:00.000-08:00

Yo~!

It's 3.15 am now and I'm blogging . Wanna know why ? Simple . It's just because I can .

While the entire Chinese community and all the other school/college students (in particular) had a week off for Chinese New Year holidays , mine has just started !

So yup though it's just 9 days (7 remaining) - I pledge to make the most out of it . And in the words of Mouse' "Yes la , that's good" .

So on your marks , get set.. GO !

Yours truly

Wake me up , when January ends

2009-01-24T08:11:00.000-08:00

There's this constant pleading from within me right now for this whole phase to end..

It's like eating glass - suffocating on cigarette smoke - downing really bitter medicine .

But He will provide . When I am about to give up , He sustains me so that I can go on a little bit more . And when I am about to give up again I remember to call upon Him to fill me a little bit more to go on a little further . And again , and again , and again .

Before you know it ; Voilà~! The finish line .

Mathew 11 : 28-30
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

How can you not thank God for being a God who can say , "I am who I am" - that His name is His character , that His name is holy from one generation to another , that He who has the heart of kings in His palm which He can direct like a watercourse is our God .

Indeed , how great is our God..

In total contrast to our own very crappy and sampat selves .

Thank YOU for grace , for love , for overflowing blessings , for knowing it all , basically for being YOU - for being God .

Yours ; over and over again Lord

In Love..

2009-01-21T08:16:00.000-08:00

And I met HIM this morning~!

Well not exactly but I watched HIM live this morning !! I guess I just have to be contented cos I'll probably never get to see him in Malaysia but yup , that practically wraps up all the 3 greats I have a need to see live .

Guess who !?

Itzhak Perlman !!

Where ?!!?

Obama's inauguration !!

Weih , that is super duper awesome . And they placed the performance right before the president's oath of office , that's how classical musicians should be seen as - super amazing ! What a great honour and priviledge to the world of classical music . Kudos to that !

But oh well , I know it being the night before exams and all (Physics and Statistics..) but how does someone pass on a moment of history !? And watching Itzhak Perlman and Yo-Yo Ma play live is just a complete icing plus cherry plus lemon on a cake la .

Don't you just love the part where the Lord of the Dance was being played ? Brought back pleasant memories and yar the whole composition was quite impeccable ! Another thumbs up to John Williams : )

Alrighty , Further maths and Mechanics left ! Sheesh..

I will not give up ,

yet .

Yours truly

Still breathing ?

2009-01-16T08:46:00.000-08:00

Exams are just such a drag la.. It's like those quicksand pits that just suck you in and when you just try and try with all your might to get out , you only get sucked even deeper in . But it's been pretty cool so far I suppose : ) Silly mistakes here and there one would have to live with and hope not to regret it too much when the results are out in the future but nevertheless , I'm still surviving ! Sure , I had an awesome December what with exams and New Years' Day was swell , even more Chinese New Year will be awesome with exams . What's worse ; time . Time which could be spent with a best friend , time which could be spent karaoke-ing , time which could be spent taking part in a 30km run , time which could be spent living a life - GONE .

As of now , there's an urge to just go all out to get something done - something that would change generations of traditions , tell the world ; hey we're not about to give up , really start a wave of utmost loving and it will all start with a simple gesture . It is my hearts' desire and if God is for us , who could be against us ?

The storm is coming but I don't mind
People are dying, I close my blinds

All that I know is I'm breathing now

I want to change the world instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

Such a random post . Toodles~!

and

XOXO la..
Yours truly

~Vindicated

2009-01-06T18:04:00.000-08:00

Dear all ,

It's official . The buzz can now die down , I can finally get my mind off the matter and put the whole shebang to rest .

I did not get my offer to Cambridge..

Obviously, I'm dejected by it but you know what ; the process of it , the super loads of encouragement I've received from everyone has just been so overwhelming to the point where I can say those 45 pounds was worth every single last penny .

Nevertheless , I give all glory to Him for truly bringing me through this and in this see so much of Him literally everywhere in my life . It has been an awesome possum journey .

On a lighter note , I still am waiting to see what Imperial's (which is like the next best thing AND it's located right in London) reply is ! But already I have some really awesome offers by some of the top universities in the world and that in itself is super the chun !

So yup life goes on and it's all good . Once again , thanks to all of you who made this rejection all the more sweeter (you guys know who you are) !

Yours truly

HELP !!!

2009-01-03T08:50:00.000-08:00

First of all , don't get me wrong , I love being a HELP-er.... Most of the time ?

During very recent times I realise that the fate of a HELP-er is as such :

Having very much less holidays than every other college
Have one's holidays when everyone isn't
From the 2nd to this point obviously it's having classes when everyone else is having holidays
Have very weird spreads of holidays such as having one really long break and after that it's classes all the way (5 months or so) till just the study break a few weeks before exams (thus not really counting as a holiday)
Have major exams in the month of January which is oh so all the more painful cos' mine eats up Chinese New Year as well
And practically live in our own little world called HELP cos' of the amount of work that will certainly set you back from the endeavours of an average lifestyle

So yes , exams are due to start on the 9th of January , 2009 . Shucks ?

Oh bother , 2009 will certainly be a year to look forward to ! It's like playing the game pass-the-parcel by yourself . Guess what I got after opening the first layer , exams !! YAY !! But yar , truly I just am so anxious to see how this year turns itself out . University ? England or not ? Scholarship ? Cambridge ? Imperial ? UCL ? Bristol ? Bath ? Love life (XD) ? Good A-Level results ? If only I could be a Hiro Nakamura or something.. Nah ! Where's the excitement after if you already know what's gonna happen .
But fuuhhh quite the handful la I tell you . In so many ways it can be super frightening but yeah what to do right.. We can only let tomorrow worry for itself because today has enough of its own worries .

Oh well , I guess we all have our worries and thoughts . Some worry about whether they have food on the table for the family tomorrow , so yup will leave it all in God's hands and in due course His will be done !

And if all fails ; play Mousehunt on Facebook !!

Or watch a virtuoso like Martha Argerich perform Scarlatti's Sonata in D Minor, K141 on YouTube !

So with that , happy new year ya'll ! : )

Yours truly

::GASP:: A tag~!

2008-12-29T21:43:00.000-08:00

Eh , my first tag ! by none other than Mouse (S.Tuck) Here goes my sampat self doing a lifeless tag..

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.

2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.

3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 1.45 PM

Name : Joshua

Sisters : None

Brothers : None

Shoe size : 9/10

Height : 173 cm

Where do you live : Taman SEA

Favourite drinks : Err.. No idea.. Water ?

Favourite breakfast : Half-boiled eggs or those really cool buffet breakfasts in hotels..

Have you ever been on a plane : Yes

Swam in the ocean : Yup

Fallen asleep in school : Of course..

Broken someone's heart : Hmm , no ?

Fell off your chair : Yup ! I can still remember the most embarassing one was at Mr Yeoh's Physics tuition in Edusmart , I laughed so hard to one of his lame jokes and just fell oveR !

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Err.. what can I say , a hopeless romantic ; guiltily , yes I have..

Saved e-mails : Yes

What is your room like : Like a room ?

What's right beside you : A phone

What is the last thing you ate : Indian rice

Ever had chicken pox : Nope

Sore throat : Yes

Stitches : Nope

Broken nose : Nope

Do you believe in love at first sight : Of course ! XD

Like picnics : Yup but never in Malaysia's hot and humid weather though .

Who was the last person you danced with : Well can't say last person.. but last few people were with the CF-ers in CF camp ; all following Kitty do the African boogie !

Last made you smile : Kye Ling !

You last yelled at : err..

Talk to someone you like : Of course , all the time .

Get sick : Yes

Talked to an ex : Yeap

Miss someone : Most of the time.. If it's not this person , it's that . There's always someone to miss I realise .

Do you sleep with stuffed animals : Nope

What's under your bed : Nothing

Who do you really hate : No one in particular..

What time is it now : 1.55 PM

RANDOMS

Q :Is there a person who is on your mind right now : Yeah

Q : Do you have any siblings : No

Q : Do you want children : Yep , 3 daughters right ; Emilyn , Elaine and Elyse (I'm contemplating Eunice in place of Elaine but we'll get to that in the future)

Q : Do you smile often : I guess so

Q : Do you like your hand-writing : Depends on the mood-writing

Q : Are your toenails painted : NO

Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : I'd assume that the Queen Mother's bed would be really comfy..

Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : Blue

Q : What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : Eating

Q : I can't wait to : Know if I got an offer for Imperial and Cambridge..

Q : When did you cry last : Just a matter of a few days ago ?

Q : Are you a friendly person : I hope so

Q : Do you have any pets : Nope

Q : Where is the person you have feelings for right now : Now problem is , who is it that I have feelings for anyway ?

Q : Did the last person you held hands with you mean anything to you now? : Oh dear , I can't remember whether I held her hand or squeezed it out of venting anger ?

Q : Do you sleep with the TV on? : No

Q : What are you doing right now? : Doing this tag

Q : Have you ever crawled through a window? : Not that I remember

Q : Can you handle the truth? : I deal with it every single day

Q : Are you closer to your mother or father? : Mother

Q : Who was the last person you cried in front of? : Oh shucks ! Oprah !

Q : How many people can you say you've really loved? : Not many la..

Q : Do you eat healthy? : I certainly try to sometimes

Q : Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? : Well back in those days , cameras were still using those kodak film thingies instead of the MicroSD's and stuff , so having a camera would be a luxury and a bane then . So yeah , nope

Q : Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : Haih , yup (and what's with this tag having to do with all this crying.. Obviously I'm oddly sensitive)

Q: How often do you go to church? : Every week

Q : If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : Well that depends on who's available but mostly I would say Kye Ling la

Q : Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : I can't really tell , 50-50 ?

Q : Are you confident? : To a certain extent , I guess so

THINGS YOU DID 10 YEARS AGO.
1. When I was 8 , I would say I had lots of fun down under . Did lots of weird things , climb trees , fall off them , play in the parks , throw boomerangs , have a crush on a lovely Greek girl and every other thing an 8 year old would do !

THINGS ON MY TO DO LIST TODAY.
1. Starrdy lor..
2. Try to play excerpts of Tzigane on the violin
3. Finish listening to the Petrushka I'm listening to now

5 SNACKS I ENJOY.
1. Chocolate
2. Ice cream
3. Berrylicious Chocolate Pavlova
4. Jell-O
5. Famous Amos' Double Chocolate Chip Cookies

5 THINGS I WOULD DO IF I WERE A BILLIONAIRE
1. Pay for my education in some posh university in England
2. Shop
3. Travel
4. Make the world a better place with the money
5. Dream of being a trillionaire ? Haha.. nah , no idea really .

5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED IN
1. My house
2. My old house down under
3. My old house in Seksyen 5
4. Jasmine Towers
5. Hotels ?

5 JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. Student
2. Waiter
3. Debater (I did get paid ultimately.. XD)
4. Pro-bono painter
5. Pro-bono teacher (which I got forced to get paid)

5 PEOPLE I TAG
1. You

Yours truly

Tis the season to be jolly~

2008-12-25T08:07:00.001-08:00

Hi !!

Happy Christmas to you : )

Yours truly

Firebird

2008-12-13T20:32:00.000-08:00

I came across this video of the maestro Igor Stravinsky conducting Firebird himself !

It really is an enchanting piece like running through a magical forest with beady eyes poking out of every shrub , nook and cranny peering out to look at the alien in their forest till you have a few glimpses of something glistening white , radiating through the little spacings not helped by the cloud of leaves and then you reach a kingdom made of pearly white marble with a gigantanormous gate and all it's glory and splendour just permeates your very being at its very sight . A glorious composition - I guarantee the end will just get you !

Mind you ; he was 83 when he conducted this - it really is worth every fleeting moment spent .

Yours truly

The Big "C"

2008-12-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

As the title suggests.. The Big "C" as Eunice (Wong) puns stands for Cambridge and I know it's been ages since the whole shebang but I guess it's better late than never right ? I guess it all started when I ran for student council president ; when during the election/speech day I got to meet and be acquainted to the sole person from HELP's 2007 batch of A-levels students who got into Cambridge . I guess from then on , the seed of interest was sown , the ever permeating desire creeped through and things just fell into place and thus I applied to The Big C .

Well , who doesn't know Cambridge ? Everyone knew Cambridge alongside Oxford ; those two were inseparable to the point the term OxBridge was coined for the two but for me it's always gonna be CamFord (Cambridge first la..) . So the following tale does not in any way suggest that I have been offered a place into Cambridge but its sole purpose is to give God all the glory for His grace and mercy having guided me through (credit here goes to Victoria Wong who rightly suggested) the whole process .

So right , I'll skip the entire form filling , online form filling , formal mumbo jumbo and go straight to the drama bits .

During the week I had to kao tim the entire handing in of the paper form , completing my UCAS application practically the entire application process right.. I had such weird encounters . At times like these , the word Cambridge just somehow finds its way to seep through your every brain cell , every nerve and thought in your mind - wondering whether one is good enough , wondering how one would perform at the interview and yada yada ; the sudden germ of an idea that you can take from any everyday experience to cause you to think that it might be a sign or good omen or something happened in the weirdest of ways !

The night I handed in my application and all that ; I watched some TV . I watched Night At the Museum (first time watching mind you..) and so yea, have a few laughs , enjoy the fancy pancy special effects , then suddenly there was this scene where the pharoah comes out of his sarcophacus (in the movie stuff in the museum come to life at night) and starts talking to Ben Stiller in Egyptian jibberish and all which we're not expected to understand . Then Ben Stiller and his "son" just gave the pharoah the blank expression and started speaking in English . Surprise surprise , the pharoah suddenly started replying them in flawless English which shocked them . They asked him how he knew English and all that . And he replied somewhere along the lines , "Oh , I was at Cambridge for a few years - they had an Egyptian relic exhibition there...." And I was like WOAH !! But , I took it lightly considering you know , it could be a complete coincidence , whatever la right..

But.. (there's always a but..) after watching that movie on Thursday I think , that weekend itself on Sunday when I went to Church.. I read the church bulletin and I was like WOAAAHHH !! It read something along the lines of ;

St. Paul's PJ welcomes Andrew Cooper, a student of theology from the University of Cambridge who is on assignment with us for two weeks .

I was shell shocked . Coincidence ? Mere coincidence ? I asked myself.. What are the odds of a student studying theology at University of Cambridge (that itself surprises me) doing an oversea exposure assignment to any country in the world ended up in Malaysia , and of all denominations - Anglican , and of all Anglican churches in Malaysia - it had to be the state of Selangor , and of all churches he was assigned to - the church I go to !?

I met him and he was a really pleasant fellow and he said something I wouldn't forget . He was like , "I realise that in Malaysia whenever someone says you're from Cambridge , quite a few heads look up or turn around towards you.." I couldn't help but laugh .

So yea I guess it's just me who had to dramatize the whole thing but oh well.. Anyway time passed and so on so forth , and I received an e-mail giving me the details of my interview and interviewer . I googled my interview and I was like chehh.. My interviewer made a breakthrough in science ! Impressive..

Came along the fateful day of my interview with Prof D.A. Cardwell , 24/10/2008 ; D-Day . Oh but before that , the night before I fell really sick . I was down with all sorts of ailments ; the flu , cough , diarrhoea - you name it . I think I ate something bad which led to food poisoning and hence the explosion within me . I was on the phone with Phui Yi , Clarice and Clarine that night and I was on the verge of dying of the phone but when I woke up in the morning , by God's super amazing-ness I was oddly fine . Went to college and since my interview was around 4.30pm (2nd last interview - each about half an hour starting from like 8.00am so do the math) at HELP itself , I attended class as usual . Then after that went for CF , after CF , I went to my car with Emerene , contemplated with Emerene which tie to wear , got my stuff , got changed , looked every bit as smart as I could and I waited . While waiting , I saw several CF members down at the lower foyer who were so sweet to pray for me and to encourage me . Pretty awesome . Wei-Li helped do my hair , I don't trust myself with my own hair.. Yeah , the usual pre-interview rituals ?

Before I went in , I met Dat Han who went in a couple slots before me and we sat and talked . He couldn't spill anything which I completely get but the super canggih moment was when he read through my personal statement , he told me to do a last minute read through on the sound waves and all since I play the violin and I included a substantial portion of that in my personal statement cos the interviewer might ask me about it . I did so .

Well so I went into the room met the interviewer , went through protocol and he started off by saying ; "So you intend to read engineering and you can't stop overturning leaves" - all of which I included in my personal statement . Then his first question was about what aspect of physics really appeals to me and captivates me . In that few seconds I was trying to think of a topic that wouldn't get me into too much trouble in case I accidently blurt out a topic I am completely clueless about . I started talking about my violin . Fine , although he didn't really start a topic on sound and my violin - I started the topic and if not for that short time with Dat Han , I wouldn't have been as familiar as I should have been and that topic wouldn't come to mind as well , so it was pretty cool . Then several questions asked and answers were given on an array of topics .
But there was one part when he asked me - how do helicopters propel itselves ? I was blank for a few moments.. Suddenly in a moment a sort of video clip played through my head like some sort of inspiration , stroke of genius moment of some war movie like Rambo or something of a helicopter moving forward ! I gave him my answer - I was right .

Yeah , I could go on and on forever about Cambridge but what point would that be right ? Many of the things that happened may have been complete coincidences or even strokes of genius on my part but I'd like to think and know for a fact that through the interview and the whole process , I wasn't alone . God has been so kind to me to the point that even the impossible could be made possible . It wasn't just what happened but it was also amazing to see how so many fellow brothers and sisters in Christ came forward and gave soooo much support and to show their love for me that truly compelled me to do my best for Him . I believe that no number of words can truly describe this entire experience and I really have no idea whether I'd get a placement in Cambridge or not , it's all His will . Needless to say , He hasn't stopped being super graciously kind to me with my application to England and the various top drawer universities . Goodness , I've typed so much that I've just lost complete track of what I've typed and everything is just off the top of my head .

As a final note , I'd like to say that it's not whether I get to Cambridge or England that defines how great and awesome God is . Through success and yes , even through failure in man's eyes , He can use it to do wonders - like turning charcoal into gold . Our God is one who can make the impossible, possible and by His stripes we are saved .

Isaiah 53

2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

P.S. To all those who prayed for me , sent sms-es , called , offered kind words in any way to encourage me , I give you my utmost gratitude : )

Yours truly

Daydreaming..

2008-12-12T19:45:00.000-08:00

I've met some of the greatest violinists ever in my time . Such amazing people has spurred me to produce sounds as such which I probably may never get to in my lifetime but the feeling of being a pinch to being able to produce such music, it's just so awesome that I'd like to share one in particular with you ; I started off with wanting to meet the 3 violin greats ; I've met two lest one ; Itzhak Perlman , so I resort to the next best thing .

Here's Itzhak Perlman playing the Melancholic Serenade by Tchaikovsky..

And here is the maestro himself performing my favourite movement in Vivaldi's Four Seasons ; Winter ; 3rd Movement : Allegro .

Shehh.. Awesome possum leh.. ^^

Yours truly

From The Inside Out

2008-11-28T08:46:00.000-08:00

Today during our 2nd last CF meeting , Joanna led worship and I did the slides thingy whereby she chose an awesome possum song which of course I had a day's early preview of ;

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart, in my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out
My soul cries out

From deep down within Lord,
Yours truly evermore

No words to describe them..

2008-11-26T08:44:00.000-08:00

Hey you ! It's rather late at night and tomorrow is my chemistry practical mock exam . What the heck la right..

I just finished blog hopping some of my classmates' in college blog and I just felt the sudden inkling of an urge to share them with you .

I still remember when I first started college and entering class to an utter dismal shock at the sheer number of guys in my class ! I was like , oh shucks.. die la . Considering the fact that I've never had such an overwhelming guy to girl ratio in my class ; in math class now there's like a 28:3 girl ratio and during physics and chem , there are only 2 girls . So yeah, use your imagination . Moreover , I've had several bad experiences with for some reason guys only back in Taman S.E.A and almost all my closest friends happen to be of the opposite gender . From then on , I dreaded every single day of college , thinking the next day would be worse than the latter and then it should come to no surprise to you that I finally adjusted to college life like after 3 months into the whole college scene .

I became the further math class representative (sounds super canggih right , and I can assure you I'm one heck of a class representative as my classmates can admit..) and Jon Hoe came into the fold of things . Not like any of that helped my situation of course but it just meant that life went on .

Little by little unknowingly , my weariness and rather defensive nature towards my classmates started to mellow and things started to get better .

I'll spare you the details of the ramblings and conflicts within me throughout the transition phase but now it seemed like lightyears away when I dreaded going to college . Now , it's just awesome possum to be able to be with the guys (it's just so much easier to label everyone guys - including Ying and Wendy) each day in college . I have friends from other classes telling me like , "Hey , your class is the most happening class one right ?" With piles of evidence , witnesses , a solid case and full of conviction I say , "Yeah man !"

I suppose it would only be fair to list out everyone's names to express my utmost pleasure of knowing but it would only mean something immense to our own little brood of friends and very little to anyone out there who reads this so I guess I won't have to list out the names , only because these names and memories that go along hand in hand have been engraven to memory and heart for a long time more to come .

In the midst of all the swearing (which I wholly detest) , random displays of body parts in class , large portions of brightly coloured underwear being shown , KFC outings , cyber-chicken meetings , magic tricks , mindless teasing and even endless showcases of picking on whoever because he/she likes this guy/girl , this bunch of fellows are superb and one of a kind . If given a chance to turn back time and choose any class to be a part of , a chance to pick one ; I'd stick with the class I'm S.Tuck with now (pun intended) .

This picture lacks a number of people and has an addition of a few others but what the heck.. Maybe another proper group picture in the future ? Maybe even with the likes of Mr. Khoo or Mr. Yeap as well ?

To those whom no words can describe;
You guys rock socks !

Here's to the rest of the time we have together !

Yours truly

Life in the not so fast lane..

2008-11-16T00:30:00.000-08:00

I am soo in the mood for a classic love story in some exotic place like Provençal or Florence or something..

Toodles !

Yours truly

Les Misérables

2008-09-29T09:33:00.000-07:00

HEY~!

I know I'm supposed to blog about how camp was awesome and my birthday which also recently passed (meaning I'm 18 now..) but.... there's an even more pressing matter ;

I found out that my Cambridge entrance interview is due to fall on the 20 something-th of this month !!! Being either like from the 25th to the 27th !!! That's only 3 weeks away !!

WILL THE WORLD JUST SCREAM WITH ME !?!?!

AHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!

Oh calamity..

If you're reading this , do do pray for me : ) Let His will and not my will be done ultimately la .

On a lighter note , see how the light just falls on me in this picture in contrast to the multitudes of other people . Shehh.. XD

Yours truly

Are you brave....?

2008-09-19T03:17:00.000-07:00

Shehhh.. Ms. Caroline says I have a consoling presence . Sounds really profound right ? But earlier on she also said I like the limelight too . I guess in a sense , that's how you wrap me up in a nutshell !

Haha ! Okay okay , I shall be back soon with a proper post . Hopefully..

And yes , to all those people who have nicely commented on my lack of geographical prowess , Alor Setar is in Kedah . Crud , didn't manage to edit the post before news of it got around ! XD

You Big Dummy~!
Yours truly .

Oh , oh here's a preview of how camp went.. (a teeny weeny itsy bitsy portion of the whole awesome possum bit of HELP CF Camp course)

Oh Let's Just Muzzle Brussel..

2008-09-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

Hola amigos and amigas !!

Not bad eh , back pretty soon . It's 12.30 am on a college night and I'm so sleepy . Insane .

The purpose of this post is to just like defibrillator-ise my blog (You know those machines you see in movies doctors use to resuscitate someone who's about to die where they have 2 of those hand held consoles and they put it to your chest and shout , "CLEAR !" and electric shock the patient ? Yea , you get my drift..)

A random fact . Did you know , jogging actually is good for you ? No , duhh ! It super rocks man.. When I first started , I just came off like a hugeeee anchor which weighed my fitness level down to the pits of some abyss . So , silly me thought , hey the warm up can consist of jogging slowly to the park (Taman Aman) but then by the time I "jogged" to Taman Aman , I was already so out of breath or puffed out , as the people down under would coin it, that I felt like I had to make my journey back already . Yup , that unfit .

So a gentle message to you guys out there ; if you wanna be a hit , staaaaay fit !

P.S. So random..

P.P.S. Did you know.... Alor Setar is in Kuantan ?

P.P.P.S. I thought Alor Setar was in Perak , XD

P.P.P.P.S. CF Camp is coming up this weekend !!!

P.P.P.P.P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE LING !!

P.P.P.P.P.P.S. I promise this is the last post script .

: )

Cheers !

Yours truly

~and I Will Sing Sing Sing !!

2008-08-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

Aloha !! When I say, "not" , you say "dead !" . When I say, "not" , you say "dead !" . Ready ?!

not , DEAD !not , DEAD ! not , DEAD ! yet..

Really am very sorry for the mega long hiatus . By now , I've most likely lost 99.999% of my readers lest you of course ! So a big thank you to you for visiting (even if you're here to spam nasty comments on my blog . cheers !)

Much has certainly happened between this post and the last and I mean PLENTY ! It's too much that obviously I can't post about everything .

An exam has passed , plenty of joy has been splurged , a few heartbreaks here and there , a reattachment of a relationship (you know who you are) , met lots of people , had lots of fun , had quite a few drinks , got knocked out stone cold once from a drink too many , further maths has started , went for a few meetings , and a conference , impacted some lives , heard someone cry on the other side of the phone , celebrated several birthdays , have a killer time in college , began application to Cambridge (oh please , work out !) , experienced more and more and well , MORE of our amazing God , heard a private journal being read with thousands of other people , gone out quite a bit , had lots of food , met some really gorgeous people recently (including one I can say that has been one of my all time biggest crushes - made me weak in the knees..) , played the violin , super longed to see some people , quiz mastered , watched a few concerts , had warm hugs , had a really early morning walk (like before even the sun was up, yo ! chehhh..) , heard some really good sermons and testimonies , watched Beethoven's 9th Symphony transform before my very eyes (one thing everyone must have on their must-do lists in life) and yup pretty much done everything except blog . So here I am .

Before I continue , just wanted to share a relatively new song I heard yesterday at the Passion World Tour Conference (which so totally ROCKED by the way). Tis called Sing Sing Sing . I know , not much of a title eh ? But it was still so awesome that it actually got me jumping jumping at the end of the night ! I got to meet Louie Giglio that night too ! Ah, I still remember going to Wai Yan's church last year and met ol' Louie for the first time (on DVD of course..) and since I watched the full sermon on YouTube not too long later , I knew I had to see him with my very own eyes and another one of those to-do items was checked . For those of you who didn't manage to catch the Passion Conference , just check it out on YouTube . AND AND AND check out the website (I somehow got in one of those photos - I literally pop out of the picture cos it seemed that only my face caught the light in the midst of all the people ! phwoarrr !! killer..) , 268blog.com and Chris Tomlin was there too . Not forgetting that I must say God's hand was just moving all over the place during the conference , He was just sooo real and so mighty and it was awesome to know that one is not alone during this revival . Wai Yan once told me that there is something powderful happening in Malaysia , here right now ! A revival is indeed sweeping across this nation and are we to be left behind, to not stand and be counted ? I say oh stinking NO !

Well basically , tonnes have happened . Busy-ness level has increased by a few notches . Workload has just quadrillion-ified . Life's boiling up and all over . And yet , everything seems so cool : ) OH ! You make me feel like dancing...

William Makepeace Thackeray once said, "There are a thousand thoughts lying within a man that he does not know till he takes up a pen to write." This statement just coins everything that has been happening within me these past few weeks . It's just been a roller coaster ride nowadays and I just have been sooo encouraged by the people around me in the little things that they do for me . Though not everyone have been there , others have , God has . Unending love , amazing grace indeed . At this moment , I'm just typing everything at the top of my head , I'm not even rationalizing what I type so here goes my random-ness . I feel like I should act in a musical . Not much opportunities for drama and stage play have opened for me during college unlike back then in school . I also realised I'm neither artsy fartsy nor sciency finecy , instead I'm both ! I also quote Randy Pausch that, "if you can find you're footing in between both cultures , you can get the best of both worlds." More so , I'm also fancy pancy according to my classmate , Ying Ying ! Haha ! Gosh , now I miss Ah Yiing too . So a big shoutout to your dorm with Chubby Cheeks aka Si Ning next to you ! Ah , I shall spare you since you've sooo patiently lasted till this line .

I shall end with this , Jit Yang once penned my blog posts to be as sporadic as Harry Potter books , I corrected him .

I said Star Wars .

So till then , God bless ! And here is ;

Mighty To Save

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
A kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King... Jesus

Yours in complete awe

I think I'm gay..

2008-04-05T07:51:00.000-07:00

Now I suppose that got your attention didn't it !?

Yes , I know this is dated the 4th of April . I was meaning to post a super chun birthday post for Kye Ling but I just never came around to doing it because you can just do that on blogger . You just save an empty post on the date and when you come back to write in it later (in this case , MUCH LATER !) and what not , it'll just be dated to the initial date ! Cheeky , I know .

Since the initial idea of this post was to be a birthday post . Here goes nothing ;

happy birthday Kye Ling !!

tadaa ! Notice it's in pink (my colour) and yellow (Kye Ling's colour) , lame I know.. It's the 7th of May now so you can really tell how belated this is , not that I didn't wish her but you know peer pressure and the need to conform to what other people post on their blogs , ah you know the teenage angst ! (If I really really run out of ideas or topics to post about , who knows maybe a tag one day ? NAH !)

So right , basically I am writing this post not just to fulfil my initial intention for this post but also because as I was reading the papers today and watching the news and what not , Raja Petra Kamaruddin or sometimes known as RPK was being put on trial for his political blog (which I admit am an avid reader just for the fun of it and because it has no holds barred to it as opposed to everything media related in this nation - to maintain the peace and not to provoke anyone of course...) and for the stuff he posted on it which you know is and always will be the fail safe for the government of Malaysia and Moral teachers and what not that stuff which can be proven seditious must not be proclaimed or it might provoke the peace and yada yada yada .

I simply quote an article in the Star highlighting what the Bar Council of Malaysia stated that 'The Sedition Act is a draconian , archaic and repressive legislation that has long outlived any perceived utility it might ever have had .' Amen to that !

Are we as Malaysians not even allowed to blog about anything ? Basically our constitution underlines and tells us , "Hey lu mia orang ada freedom of speech tapi kena tengok la , jangan sampai seditious ke provoke orang ke , yang lain semua tu boleh la." That really is saying , you guys have no freedom of speech cos we say so . Being brought up as Malaysians , I'm sad to say that we have just been brought up with such a mindset that it is just regarded as a quid pro quo along with 'princes and princesses of soil benefits' for other races to live in Malaysia and really couldn't be all the more bothered challenging it cos we'll just be spanked right on our buttocks and told to sit and shut up by the beloved Internal Security Act which I believe as the Sedition Act has long outlived any perceived utility it might ever have had as the Bar Council of Malaysia puts it .

Let me remind you that Tun Dr. Mahathir himself has proclaimed that there will be no censoring the Internet as no one nation really has the right to impose a ban or anything on the Internet as it is like international sea waters and terminals of the airport a property of the world . Moreover , the blog isn't even hosted in Malaysia but in Singapore making this entire prosecution thing more or less impotent . So yes , I believe RPK and whoever his lawyer is will have a whirl of a time defending themselves against the accusations made by the government .

During the May general elections , throughout the night as news was pouring in about this win here and that win there from BN , somehow or rather the news about Penang being lost to the opposition party (first state to be confirmed lost I believe) was being held back so avidly by all channels on our national television not to forget Astro as well even when Mr. Koh Tsu Koon conceded the lost and was holding a press conference informing of the news of Penang being lost to the opposition only was posted up on one channel (late of course as compared to MalaysiaKini.com) , is it the right of the government manipulated media to withhold the news to at least one third of the nation which they are concerned with (those who voted opposition at least) ? Well as the saying goes , 'knowledge is power' and since everything that is being uttered or posted on blogs and the media is considered as knowledge , we as Malaysians must understand how critical this issue is that we should not be like Myanmar who are cocooned by their military government from the world (remember the monks issue and how they protested for democracy ?) as it is very much alike to castrating ourselves from the real deal , the big picture and yes the grand scheme of what we have a right to .

You must understand that although RPK has nothing to do with you or whether you might be a BN supporter or you pretty well just follow what your mommy and daddy tells you , Malaysia lives by a democracy (or at least a figment of a completely distorted idea of it) . The idea of democracy is that the people govern the nation . Blardy well , democracy is not the perfect system to rule a nation but it is by far the best . However , what we are seeing today is nothing less than a modern day dictatorship where people are being denied the freedom of speech (can you imagine the ISA catching you one night for telling your friends you hate the education system of Malaysia over MSN ?) , the national treasury is exploited to anyone's benefit when proper needs are neglected (sending Datuk SMS to space and now fully funding the next space tourist in the near future and saying stuff like, "We can't subsidise your fuel because it might bankrupt the nation.") and also the constant bias attitude towards the 'princes and princesses of the soil' who have been leeching of the benefits of financial aid , housing and even education which I feel so strongly about (the Malays that I have met and come to know are incredibly bright , quick witted and even entirely competent by international standards whereby disproving the fact they need all this aid . In fact , by continuing all this aid the government is actually raising a generation of sons and daughters of the soil who will grow to be overly dependant , take for granted of such aid and really couldn't care less about their potential because worse come to worse they'll be guaranteed a job in all the fast food chains - notice the people working in McD's , KFC and what not are of such creed and colour - right up to the law that each company must have a super high post son or daughter of soil in their executive board) .

The needs of the nation are aplenty . Our downward spiral on education and globally incompetent economy to name a few . In NS , Jit Yang was requested to name an item which the nation had helped him in along with every other NS trainee to thank for and he said they have done nothing which he should thank the nation for . I love my school but the education and philosophy it professes and has passed down to me is nothing more than brainwashing methods and overly enthusiastic idealisms some of our teachers have adopted sickens me . The fact that if our very own government can do everything and anything they want , this ideology somehow prompts our teaches to think and act in anyway they like (disallow a crew cut hairdo , promote and sponsor only selected bodies within the school and neglect others , telling the students you cannot have this and that because of stupid reasons ) without taking into consideration the voice of the students and we wonder why students revolt and act all rebellious not just because they are gangsters and have family problems . To date , I still haven't quite grasped a solid fact of which I can thank my country for if compared to any other decent , not war-torn , hunger-stricken and third world country of course . See how the actions of the nations leaders can flow all the way down to the teachers and individuals of a nation which is why we must at times stand up for what we believe in and condone actions which are improper . Is it bad that we right a wrong without violence of course . You and I have a voice , it has been heard . It was rude that we had to wake up half the neighbourhood , let us be considerate and wake the other half up !

Will there be a day where there is no World Press Freedom Day but just World Press Freedom ? Will there be a day where is no restrained freedom of speech but just freedom of speech ? Will there be a day where there is no information that is held back but just unbiased information not just on the internet but also on our national television ? Will there be a day where there will not be a distinction on whether you are bumiputera or not in Malaysia but just labelled Malaysian with no strings attached ? Will there be a day when the government of Malaysia justifies properly all its dealings and that transparency be their principal ?

If not , Malaysia will still have a future , just a very dark and grim one if I might add .

P.S. I wonder if this is seen as seditious too ?

Yours truly

: )

2008-03-29T21:59:00.000-07:00

I am unusually over the moon and utterly gleeful oddly enough .

Why ?!

Because I lost in the election for the student council presidency ! Not that I didn't want the post but it's like some sort of odd negative feedback mechanism came over me the moment I found out I lost , I was overjoyed if that's the right word ! Kudos to Jason , Takshi and the newly elected council , you guys are awesome possum and you guys will definitely have my support throughout . Well like I said , even though I probably made an utter fool of myself talking crap on stage , going blank and probably hyperventilating more than I should have , it was an intriguing experience .

For the benefit of those who weren't there , the entire curtain was pulled down on my performance - speech cum skit , so yes I was shocked and I was dumbstruck . I didn't know what to do . It was meant to be a stellar performance that was meant to kill the crowd but I guess putting all my eggs in one basket was just the actual scenario I had put myself in . Don't take me wrong , I love the idea of suddenly switching the entire scene and making an impromptu speech thingy to the statement , "Integrity is what you say , what you do and what you say you do. " So yes , that was awesome possum .

I'll reserve the performance thing to myself so that the infringement of copyright is maintained . So yeah , but there wasn't gonna be any singing , I promise , it was just gonna be walking into the theatrette to cheesy music and in pyjamas...........

After the election , Tze-en and I went to KLCC to have dinner and celebrate my lost . We talked and talked and talked , something we haven't done in a long long time . Everything under the sun became our topic of discussion . That was simply awesome possum .

So yes , I am now back to living my life as a college student , an ex-presidential candidate and still under God's provision and grace .

With all that's said , bravo to Jon , Sze Yin , Pang Chia Hua , Pei Hau , Pia , Takshi and Jason ! All the best and make us proud !

And to all who made my campaigning possible . Special thanks to each and everyone of you , I don't need to publish your names , I remember each and everyone of you by heart and in prayer . Domo arigato ! : ) And to the outgoing student council , thanks for the opportunity and that glint of faith to let me run . To Kar Leng for making me feel like the best loser on the planet , literally ! (Her consoling words nearly drove me to tears..) Like I said previously , if by hook or by crook A-Levels turned into a 3 year course , I'd vote Kar Leng for another term man ! All the best in your future proceedings . God speed .

Yours truly

Oh dear..

2008-03-19T20:52:00.000-07:00

Oh dear indeed , I'm so confused , I've found myself in a conundrum..

Thank you Phui Yi . Thank you Jit Yang . And especially to you Tze-en , thank you . To all standing with me and beside me , thank you even you sampat Wei Kit !

I stand for what I believe in , what I will fight for , never in weakness but firm by God's strength and wisdom , I shall live and serve a life of impact and inspiration , all this done with perseverance , passion and poise .

This is my oath to you .

Yours truly

"Vote For a Change"..

2008-03-08T17:26:00.000-08:00

..was what this young man said to me in fluent English while I was waiting for the bus to college at the Bangsar LRT . He handed me a flyer with Anwar's daughter , Nurul Izzah Anwars' face on the cover . Mind you , I did not expect her to win the constituency in Bangsar especially against the likes of a seasoned politician such as Sharizat . I threw the flyer away the moment I reached college , little did I know , this sweet faced new kid on the block who has never touched or entered the arena of politics won . Clearly , the people do not bother about who runs for the constituency , the question is whether or not Barisan Nasional have their two thirds majority .

Well I can't say I was the totally awesome possum political analyst because I expected stuff which heck even the simplest simpleton would have expected . In fact , I only dared share my political views with the girl down under since she's an ocean away and far enough that I may not get into trouble because of "sensitive issue" pun ; Barisan Nasional would suffer a major dip in support but still win as my Malaysian Studies lecturer , Mr. Al says , "BN forever will win" , they would lose several states , they may lose their two thirds majority and they did .

Truly , the wonder of politics , no ? Every act would lead to repercussions in politics . Just when Mahathir was about to step down , people were like thank goodness , he's finally gone . Now let's usher in Pak Lah with a 92% majority and that act led to the repercussion of the Barisan Nasional government being a tad more pompous and irresponsible in their dealings . Weekly Dewan Rakyat meetings turned into rackets and squabbles led by the Barisan Nasional representatives . Crazy statements like , "Sorry lah we cannot subsidize the oil price anymore, nanti cripple the country tau ?"

Mere statements , can be forgivable but even more absurd actions , maybe we'll heavily consider . One which comes to mind that stands out above other is , "Let's send a man to space for the sake of a small step for him and a giant leap for the Malaysian people !" , "How much ? A trillion dollars ? Aiyar , Malaysia boleh-mah !"

Government aside , now let us take a look at the demographics of the people . The Malays have held their BERSIH rally , the Indians have had their HINDRAF rally , people were wondering whether the Chinese will hold a CHINDRAF rally but thank God we didn't , instead the Chinese sent their children overseas with a chunk load of money for the past decades and now this year , the Chinese have done almost the unthinkable in handing over probably the most urbanized and heavily economic states of the nation to the opposition party , namely Penang and even the city of Petaling Jaya . The people felt a new wave of change and a new wind underneath a different set of wings . Everyone knew that change is going to come this time round and they voted .

Two days ago , I was living under the constituency of YB Chew Mei Fun , today I am living under some DAP dude . Two days ago , I went to college under the constituency of Sharizat , tomorrow I'll be hopping on the bus to now , the land under Nurul Izzah Anwar . My thoughts on this general election ? Malaysia , you did not vote for the candidate , you voted for the party . Anwar has proposed to lower oil prices , paint flats , do this and do that . Sounds splendid , doesn't it ? We shall see if the rupture of the two third majority can make any change because both sides now cannot have any complete say on any matter as they always will need a two third majority . Will this end up in continuous disagreement throughout and zero decisions reached ? At the same time , you have elected a tonne of people who have no experience in ruling a nation or much less a state . All in all , I have to say that this time the Malaysian people have not voted because they see more Barisan Nasional flags and advertisements spilled all over the media but because they saw one plan failing , so now they intend to put their hope in another plan . So I say , well done for not succumbing to anything but your own capacity to vote . With your vote , the pendulum swung . Now the playing field is leveled , now we may see proper governing and hopefully now we can see a change which we can count on . To the nations newly elected leaders , God speed .

Democracy is not the perfect solution to rule a nation but it is by far the best solution we have yet .

Yours truly

Of Canis Majoris to Laminin

2008-03-01T19:36:00.000-08:00

I've never posted an entire post based on YouTube videos . But today I will . This ladies and gentlemen , will be a series of videos that will blow you away from the seat you're sitting on the the quadrillions of light years away . My first time watching it was at Wai Yan's church early this year and I watched the full thing on YouTube and I couldn't help but tear and cry and sniffle .

This series of videos as one of the commentators have said is probably the most moving series of videos on YouTube and you will not regret watching it if you do . I don't highly recommend it , I'm begging you to watch it ! If you call yourself an atheist and don't believe in a God that is so big and so awesome , you will . If you don't believe we're probably the teeniest microscopic being as compared to the gigantanormous humoungous and titanicly large God , you will . If you will take this step to just take that extra 15 clicks , you will either be enriched beyond any light year or you will just be boggled inside being at a lost for words .

This is life changing , heart moving , earth shaking , sky scraping , mountain crumbling stuff here . Please please , take this extra step , take some time off and watch this series of videos entitled "How Great Is Our God" by Louie Giglio . I'll even save you the trouble of jumping from site to site , don't be frightened about the number of videos there are , they're only ranging from 40 seconds to about 6 minutes each video so it's relatively short .

Amazing stuff ain't it ?

yours truly

A Day Out At The MPO

2008-02-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

Today , I had the chance to observe one of the greatest violinists I have ever seen , Feng Ning .

His performance today of all three movements of Paganini's Violin Concerto in D , can be wrapped in one word ; BREATHTAKING . This man actually won the Paganini International Competition like 2006 ! So this kid's fresh out of the block , with only 27 years of age he is an astounding force indeed to be reckoned with in the future . He had the chance to play the 1743 Guarneri del Gesu , probably one of the world's most renowned violins which was owned by Paganini HIMSELF ! Oh and the way he says Paganini is wicked ! He says it so fast , that you can barely catch it and dashed with a heavy accent that makes Paganini sound like you were trying to tell the world the latest gossip but in the most unrevealing way , I think ? He too has a beautiful violin which produces a very warm yet rich sound at the same time , though I have no idea what violin he's currently using . It was mesmerizing both his skill on the violin and the quality of the sound it produced .

I guess , you first have to hear and then you will see .

Haha.. Oh well , not only that , I bumped into Pn. Yip and her daughter who's from BU4 and Pn. Chung and her daughter who I believe is going into accountancy . So that was awesome possum .

Apart from the gila best performance today , driving class was exciting , I got to get in the car to be driven by Yen Ee , who is a killer driver man !! No offence , if you're reading this but I was rather scared to bits .

Chelsea are currently up 1 nil to Tottenham , can you just feel it !?!!? Okay I'll just hurry along and watch the remainder .

God speed to you !

Yours truly

Dare I say oops ?

2008-02-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

Well yeah , literally oops ! In my previous post , I guiltlessly ranted on and on about Akiko Suwanai performing this weekend and then I realised , hey wait a minute , her performance is actually in March ! I mixed it up with another violin solo performance this Sunday by some person I never heard of but oh well , I'm just interested in Paganini's Concerto for Violin in D which is by far world famous and super duper virtuoso in technique and what not . So what the heck..

I'm too lazy to edit that entire post so I just decided to type out this post and you know what , I shall redeem myself by this hilarious pair of comedians on the piano and violin who are not just funny but quite skilled too..

So ladies and gentlemen , presenting the youtube video of the day ; I Will Survive .

Get well soon cousin ! Hope this thingy would do you good since laughter is the best medicine , no ?

Yours truly

Vindicated~!

2008-02-22T20:07:00.000-08:00

Currently bawling over ~ Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Killer addictive song man..)

So the eagerly anticipated weekend is here.. Thank God ! Honestly , college has been getting to me , what with the workload and all , laced with LAN assignments where one is due next Thursday ! Blimey indeed..

(You might want to skip this entire paragraph if you don't want to be a victim of my frivolous ranting on classical music)
And because AKIKO SUWANAI is here !! She's this really pretty Japanese violinist who had studied under the likes of Dorothy Delay and Cho-Liang Lin who already needs no introduction because I just am a huge fan of Cho-Liang Lin , not to forget winning the Tchaikovsky International Competition at the age of 18 , which is by far the youngest age yet ! So I am really looking forward to watching her perform especially propped with the 1714 Dolphin Strad . I still remember the first time I actually heard a Stradivarius in action till this very day which was impeccably amazingly megalomaniacly awesome possum ! It's very swish and swoosh followed by a very distinct resonance leads you to live and breath the sound of the Strad that very moment till today as I type this post . Well that's just me because I just love listening to what I love listening to and that is whatever I love listening to . For the benefit of those who have no idea of what I am talking about , and to the plebes that have yet to appreciate classical music in its true form which as Mendelssohn called a range of his pieces , songs without words , this is Akiko Suwanai who is as I have already mentioned , pretty or in the words of typical Malaysians who can fuse a variety of languages to achieve a sort of universal language ; " Wah ! Pompuan tu , hen kawaii lai de . "

The ever graceful and talented Akiko Suwanai . Can't wait to see you !! XD

Well apart from that , nothing much has happened over the week , apart from annoying Amelia Chan every Tuesday and Thursday , having super fun chemistry practicals , enjoying super fun and hilarious classes with the likes of Mr. Yeap and Mr. Khoo and who could forget tucking in to a healthy dose of homework EVERYDAY !!

Yesterday was the first ever A-levels General Meeting and for those who missed out on the raw action that unfolded that day , I don't know whether to pity or to say how fortunate you are for not going . The conference hall was packed with tonnes of A-levels' people and the front on the stage area a row of tables lined with the A-levels council members and some staff of HELP were literally being thrown daggers at , especially the likes of Kar Leng and Amelia Foo , our el presidente and el vicio presidente . One after another as the topics rose , people just stood and gave all sorts of weird ideas and projected some sort of super disgust towards the things that are currently in practice . Some of which are agreeable , some I regrettably say are plain childish especially coming from the likes of people who are helllooooo... 17 and above ?! From asking for a sort of "Touch n Go" system for the carpark to asking for online registration for exams . Before you say anything , the online registration for exams may seem like a pretty good idea right ? But imagine this , when suddenly a pack of lets say 500 students try to register for exams on a website online during that certain period of time , you might as well just check whether you got selected for NS online when the announcement has been made on the papers the day before , if you get my drift ? In today's words , it's a traffic jam of input that may end up being more of a bane than being a boon .

So a special admiration has been planted in me for those people down there on the stage who literally had to suffer probably 2 hours of demands and probably inheriting a headache soon after , bravo ! Sitting in the audience and listening was enough to make my head spin , imagine being bombarded down there is an ordeal in itself . Even I would vote for them for another term if A-levels suddenly became a 3 year course or something .

That pretty much wraps up my entire week and so on , because of all these events coming up I am sad to say that I really suddenly miss CF so much , not specifically our Taman SEA CF but going for CF in general , hopefully nothing pops up and I'll be able to go for CF next week ! WOO !

To that chiqa down under ! Keep dazzling ! You better keep me in mind as you down all those kebabs , ice cream and all that good food down there .

To those reading , thank you~! Now go do something much more useful !

Yours truly

Forever yours...

2008-02-14T06:44:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year came and gone . It's holiday also came and gone . People like Sharanjeet , Wen Yi and Wen Xian have also came and gone . Worse , another Valentine's day has came and gone , with me still being single . ^^ Talking about being single , dare i add a spoonful of loneliness ?

Melbourne stole the best person on this Earth .

The woman who meant the world and more to me , beautiful in every sense of the word , with pride I call her my confidant , my best friend , my cousin .

My highlight of my entire high school life was not debate , not drama , not setting a trend of using pink everything in my school (from bags to specs - I don't follow trends , i create trends ! XD) , no it was neither of those . Instead , it was meeting this then timid , short haired beauty ; Wong Kye Ling . Oh ! Dare I say how you had blessed me in so many ways that I had at times wondered whether you were one of God's angels sent to me and goodness knows how much I thank Him for letting me know you .

From meeting you at the Ko-operasi , on that fine Thursday when we were just little Form 1's , asking you for rulers which you thought were rollers first and rollers when you thought rulers next and actually ending up wanting both . Realising how distinct you were from everyone else , indeed a gem yet to be polished . Merely getting to know each other on that one single day , the mustard seed of our mulberry tree friendship was sown (we're like happy tree friends now !! haha) .
To being in the same class as you in Form 2 Jasmin , our frien

(This was exactly where I stopped till I couldn't take it anymore because of the explosion of emotions in me . It made me so want to talk to you , hear from you , even for the teeniest-weeniest second and I did even if it was just for 5 minutes . Thank God we did .)

..dship grew faster than any weed or lalang and blossomed far more beautiful than any flower or latest shopping mall you can think of . We played badminton till our arms got sore while you wore sandals and missed all sorts . To going online , just so I could talk to you at night (we didn't have phones then if I'm not mistaken - we were little kiddies then !) . We grew up together .
Then along came PMR year and I still enjoyed your company and companion-ship in Form 3 . Doing all the crazy stuff and being even closer friends , still playing badminton . You would come around asking for money , literally just so someone else could be made happier on their birthday . You went the extra mile for everyone but to me you went the gazillion bajillion light years for this poor wretched soul belonging to me .
And Form 2 and Form 3 were probably the best high school years I had , undisputed . The other years were amazing , but there were too many complications here and there that tainted it which obviously you stood by me through .
Probably the hallmark of our relationship because we both got sent to different classes in Form 4 , leaving me in utter distraught but regardless , thanks to BK and all the things you needed help with , unknowingly you became more than the world to me . From our Friday BK outings , to buying presents for people in Pasar Seni , to buying flowers for the multitudes of people , to going to get beads , not to forget making bead key chains and handphone accessories , to running all over the world getting stuff which are not for us but for others , till I got sick of it that I demanded that we go out together just for our sake which ended up happening only in Form 5 , to running over to your house just because I was bored .
Which leaves our final year , Form 5 , the period of time in which we had the most beautiful of beautiful relationships and spent the best quality of time together that not even the western quality and Chinese mass production combined could beat . We were there for each other and we ate assam laksa together .

In those 5 years , we grew up together , shared our lives with each other , shared our story with each other , grew onto each other , ate with each other , whacked each other , emo-ed with each other , ranted with each other , had late night long calls with each other and in our distinct yet truly as you say we had no need of huge billboards and planes flying across the sky with banners spilling our love for each other , it's because we do and that's what matters , through what we do and how we live our lives together each and everyday .

Even though I had to run all over getting this and that done for you , carrying chunks of stuff like some ma chai , helping you out in the middle of the night , answering your calls when I knew , it only had to be you asking for a favour and even when I had to taken upon me the responsibility of all your rantings and your low-tides .

It was worth every ounce of it .

Because we travelled the world that we would probably qualify for the Amazing Race .

Because even though I say this over and over again it still wouldn't suffice the fact that you mean the world and more to me .

Because we oh so know , oh so well that even if an ocean divides us , being in different countries does not determine the state of our friendship .

And certainly , beyond any shadow of doubt , it is because with all four chambers of my heart , I love you .

When I hugged you just before you entered the security check thingy at the airport , I couldn't bare to let go and I won't try to get over the fact that you're gone because I can't but I guess I just have to live with it with all confidence that we will still go beyond obstacles for each other and we will still have a rocking - smoking hot - awesome possum relationship that we will live to tell our children's children about !

So I bid thee farewell and God's eternal blessing , when part of me flew of to Australia with you , I live in the confidence that it will return that we might live out our lives to the fullest having each others role to play in our lives , yes ! Even if it means having to suffer more ranting from each other .

My tribute to the girl who meant the world to me and more .

Forever yours ,
Joshua

P.S. When you come back , we have lots of dress shopping that needs to be done ! ^^ God bless .

Of insane outings and well , LOTS OF FOOD !

2008-02-05T19:38:00.000-08:00

HELLLOOOO MALAYSIA !!! Just one of those super cheesy lines which hosts say on some morning talkshow , which of course me being all cheesy and lame always wanted to say..

It's been ages since I posted a proper update , so here goes . Regarding the college scene , I finally got LAN !! Long story short , I had to spend 12 hours in college to actually get the application through and confirm my place just so that I don't have to suffer LAN with further maths in the following terms since it already is a nightmare , let's not make it a megalomaniac nightmare . I believe , I can say this with confidence that I have accustomed to the sheer intensity that is college life but not the workload unfortunately which just piles up like nobody's business . It's just 365 questions for chemistry , a whole chapter of math to do which is a couple hundred of graph sketches , not to forget the "number crunching" (as my lecturer calls it) questions of statistics and to top it all of , it's just a day's work ! Maybe I'm exaggerating but a weeks worth of work not to forget mechanics and physics . Yum ! This is piled on a guy who never lived 2 hours in class and never had homework in school.. even in form 5 ! I have no idea how i managed to pull through..

Recently watched two concerts in the month of err , January . One was a piano concerto by Simon Trepceski , which sooo rocked , with Amelia Foong (I just had to specify who , there are just tooo many Amelias around !) who performed Rachmaninov's first piano concerto . One word , breathtaking . He was just soo good , to the person who was supposed to go initially , too bad !! But you got Switchfoot in return , so that's not too bad a trade . The following week , another concert , disappointing . Sadly , with Kye Ling . It was the date I really did not want to look forward to since it marks her really really premature departure . It was great spending time with her and all , we both went camwhore crazy and failed miserably . I am tempted to post the full length picture so that her dress can be showcased but she has made me promise not to . We also tried to take a picture of the woman sitting behind her cos she had wicked hair !

Yup , that's it ! Nonetheless , awesome food ; oysters and sashimi and tonnes of seafood and sharks fin soup and scrumptious dessert and yada yada yada . I'll let your imagination do the talking . So after making a scrutinizingly difficult choice and sidelining the full shots and maybe "cheeky" pictures , I decided this picture should wrap that date up .

Met Sharanjeet and her super gorgeous friend from New Zealand , Iru . Went to Sunway Lagoon which was disappointing in my opinion . Did some crazy stuff like sorta "popping" the question to Iru while we were totally upside down like 5 stories above the ground . And everything else people normally do in a theme park , like so ;

Iru's the one in blue next to me , awww how sweet we both look together ? ^^

Then we had Wen Yi's re-farewell i believe two days before she left to go back to Adelaide . The usual , food and food and food and well yea , you guessed it wonderful company ! (Notice I'm getting lazier by not elaborating on the details cos now I'm letting the pictures do the talking , hey don't blame me ! It's the eve of Chinese New Year and I had college !)

oh oh ! This is the picture I had always wanted to take , well I guess you can see for yourself that the 5 of us is shaped well like a mountain , the peak which is me and as you move along it gets smaller in stature . I'm sick am I ? I was even called a paedophile in college today . Goodness , loving classmates I have .

The lot at Marco's pizza . And yes , if you're wondering , gorgeous Gervanne was attending to my whims and fancies again !

So apart from that , helped Kye Ling collect her P License which means yes , she can drive ! The moment she knocked on my door and I opened it , she ran and grabbed me out of my house , got into the car , threw the P stickers on the dashboards and she started driving home , I had seizures for the first time in my life , literally . But all in all , we reached her place in one piece . She signed off by suddenly jolting the car nearly bringing down the main door of the house .

Furthermore , we visited Mr. Yeoh ;

Did la-la poses ;

Acted sampat where obviously I couldn't stop laughing (and yes , we're going to elope to London , so shhh see you there !) ;

Slept over Kye Ling's and had lunch the following day ;

and that wasn't too bad a post covering a month and a half now was it ? Last night , we welcomed back the NS bound souls , who finally had real food at TGIF and celebrated Yong Ming's' birthday not to forget bumping into Li Foong on the way to TGIF whose birthday was on the day before , happy birthday to you too .

I believe for those of you who read to the end , you probably might realise how Kye Ling revolved this post is , yes it's deliberate cos I will greatly miss her . She's already leaving in 5 more days . So yes , to the woman who has meant the world to me , I hate you too (inside thing) . So all that's said and done . Welcome back Secky ! I never knew he read my blog . XD Happy Chinese New Year to all , God bless and drive safe , for those who can ! bleck..

Yours truly

Till I See You...

2008-02-01T04:42:00.001-08:00

So sorry for the really long demise.. I've just been totally busy and I really have very few pictures to post . I promise I'll post soon enough . I'm doing this cos I just watched this video on Youtube which is uber duper adorable . It's only about a minute and a half long , believe me you won't regret it..

Hopefully , with this I also wanna apologize to Stephanie for not being able to make it for your birthday party , so Happy Birthday !!

Yours truly

Kiri or Kanan ?

2008-01-11T06:51:00.000-08:00

Well this is the time where on the education channel , a guy wearing a super cheesy bright coloured , long-sleeved turtleneck (be it yellow , purple , red , blue etc) suddenly with a super cheesy voice go ,

DID YOU KNOW...

in Persian which is the language Iranians speak , kiri and kanan which means left and right obviously means something totally different ! Well this is what I learnt in college today . There were these few Iranians talking about life in Malaysia , the culture shocks and yada yada during this event with us SASA scholars . It was something like an orientation for international students and get-to-know each other and cross-racial-barriers slogans pasted , written and highlighted all over the facilitators foreheads . So yea.. One of the Iranians got into a taxi , the taxi driver suddenly went kiri or kanan ?! The Iranian dude was like super duper shocked !! cos... kiri actually meant in the Persian language , a man's fronta genitals and kanan meant literally the backside ! So i guess in his head , the taxi driver was offering gay services , front or backward !?!? HAHAHA !!! And I also learnt that the word "seronok" in Bahasa Indonesia meant porn !!! I think everyone in the room got the shock of their lives !! How interesting.. Well those were the more fascinating happenings during the event cos you know some words tend to tick your mind . It's like when someone says "hot girl !" , you'll probably notice a number of heads turn a 360 degree scan of the area looking out for the "hot girl" ! ^^

Today also marks the last day of my first week of college . Lecturers are great.. Physics lecturer errrr , I'll keep the comments to myself . My Chemistry lecturer is awesome possum !! Hilariously funny bunny la that jokerholic ! Well I'll spare you the details cos you'll most probably be like , "HAH ?!" at the end of the paragraph . I'll just get straight to the point ; met loads of people . Learnt lots of things . Kicked lots of butt . Took Further Maths . Became Class Representative of Further Maths class !! Flirted with loads of girls ? NAH ! Thank God for Tze-en or else i seriously doubt I would have survived college thus far . She's like my confidant and gorgeous aide-de-camp : ) Love her . I wonder if I can remember every new name i got to know . Not considering whether they're all correct spelling of course .

Pek Wan / Paik Wan , Rui Jin , Ken , Tara / Tyra , Chi Fen , Weng Chuen , Wendy , Kugarn , Pei Hao , Wendy , Koo , Suet Wei , Eugene , Isabelle , Charlene , Chee Fai , Aaron , Yew Weng , Jebat , Terk Cherng , Wei Kit , Dat Han , Wee Lim , Cherrisa , Wei Huey , Nixi , Wen An , Siew Ling and I believe a tonne more people if I were like to bump into them or something cos obviously meeting just soooooo many people in such a short period can like cause some blockage in my memory trying to remember all their names not to forget the processing ?

So today , after college was the thoinga thoing international students event . Notice that I introduce to you a wide range of vocabulary ? I am a linguist you know . "Eh ! Pompuan tu , hen kawaii lai de." ^^ Then met up with Kye Ling and Tze-en after they went shopping and we left for Ms. Moey's BK Class which is awesome as always with an addition of a camera crew and a different venue . Goodness BK Class is always the bomb , you guys should go for BK man ! You have no idea what you're missing out here . So well , BK Class was great and we came all the way back and Tze-en went home and Kye Ling and I were left to deliberate on what to have for dinner . We decided Marco's Pizza cos we were at Kelana Jaya and we kinda always saw the huge sign board and always wanted to try the place out so we did .

Entering the doors of Marco's Pizza , we were greeted by a familiar face ;

Ladies and gentlemen , Gervanne Rekha of whom I have come to realise is soooo adorably hilarious , sweet and just the best waitress ever . Just look at her gleaming smile with my refill of Sprite ! Initially I didn't think we got a good picture cos it looked blur but the effect kinda makes her look more angelic !? She was super duper patient putting up with my antics and so on so forth . For goodness sake , I asked for a pillow for my back , so yeah.. use your imagination then XD We had really good pizzas . Some Marco's Specialty and some other funny pizza which was alright . Just go la ! It's 10 times better than Pizza Hut , plus the service is the likes of Gervanne so it's a must try until STPM results come out !! Kye Ling wanted to be more adventurous , so we got creme brulee . We had no idea how to eat it .

Seriously , I'm not the kind that takes pictures of food but it looks so gourmet-y ;

So we got some expert help !

The awesome possum , most gorgeous , lovably hilarious , superbly super woman and not to forget SMOKING HOT !! LEE YEE CHENG !!! told us to crack the top layer of the creme brulee and you'll have some custard-pudding under which is uber duper sweet .

She was so right .

Oh well , because we were so syok-sendiri and after the immense sugar rush from the creme brulee . Me and my bestest most best friend had a set of empty and used cutlery ;

So what do you do when you look like you're high on meth and you have empty plates with pizza crusts !? With such an amazing waitress attending to our every whim and desire . We just had to reward Gervanne didn't we ?

If you can see properly , it's a smiley face made out of pizza crusts for Gervanne . Some other waiter wanted to take it away , we were like NOO !! She must be traumatized .

So thank you Gervanne , Yee Cheng and last but not least my most beautiful and beloved cousin , Wong Kye Ling for such an awesome possum dinner ! : )

Yours truly

I'm a HELPer !! WOooO !

2008-01-03T06:16:00.000-08:00

"ooh CRAP !!" was the first thing that came to mind last night ! Why ?! Not for some cataclysmic reason or that I was in big trouble . I realised , that when I woke up today , I HAD TO CHOOSE WHAT TO WEAR !!! blimey indeed.. Considering I never had to bother with what I wore to school for the past 11 years of my life ? So yeah.. I managed to rummage through my clothes to find something decent to wear on the first day I get to wear anything I like and the first day where the grubby fingers of the government hasn't and will not leave it's fingerprints on anymore ! Until i begin the LAN (not the male genital) subjects of course... Bleck.. Till then , who cares !?! I'm free of the Malaysian education system , wOo !

So yeah , first day of college was today . On the way there I met this girl from Sri Cempaka , who asked me really sweetly whether I was a HELP student and asked for directions . So being the "saint" that I am showed her the way and oddly enough my first day of college started being accompanied by a girl ! Lucky me !?! I don't remember high school and my primary years to be that awesome possum ! XD Then , registration . Woah ! The multitudes of people and the queues... Thank goodness I met Aris and Satish and they showed me a line which was oddly empty , yay me ! Well mainly because you know everyone's blur blur on their first day and they're not that alert so they just queue up where there is a bunch of people and eventually a whole line builds and who knows ! It's not even a line ! ^^ Met Khy Li there ! haha.. Now he is a sight to behold , with a black stud on his right ear lobe and brown hair , that guy is definitely awesome possum man ! One of a kind.. Then I met Shu Xuan , Su Xin and Siew Yan . Funny how all their names start with an "S" ? Not to forget Satish.. I suddenly went awww... Little fragments of my past from Taman SEA I will be able to take along with me for the next one and a half years at HELP . Met some other people of whom I believe I can remember their names , I think . Oh , oh ! I also met Jason Chow , who is the uber-chun-oompa-loompa best speaker of the HELP Debate finals from Wesley Methodist School , who looks uncannily a lot like Yi Hui actually . Gila best ! He'll most probably never see this blog but yeah I think that guy is awesome possum . Really nice fellow who looks like a typical college student but has like the perfect tone , voice , pitch , a tongue of steel and you name it because when he speaks , you listen . Be it a topic of polar bears popping up in the Gobi Dessert or George Bush actually having an affair with Pak Lah to even that Malaysia being the real initiators on the "War on Terror" , you will listen . Props to him !

And the actual orientation thingymajig began . Deng deng deng , talks after talks . Some interestingly funny and some oddly well ODD ! There was an emcee of all sorts , awesome possum student council , in my opinion err , motivational talks , people fishing for future degree students and members for clubs etc . and NO FOOD !! throughout the entire day , can you believe that !? Not even a tiny slot for "LUNCH" . For a guy who lives to eat , I am deeply taken aback ! Tch tch tch.. Here's a note to all future event organizers and PR people , priority No. 1 should and will always be food , be it snacks , buffets or just downright sad mi goreng and curry puffs from the friendly neighbourhood mamak ! We went on with the campus tour , not forgetting that we were incredibly behind schedule . Walked here , took bus there , walked there , sweat a little , take a lift up , take a lift down till I couldn't take it anymore cos' I was downright famished . So the moment we reached the main block again , I just broke off from the tour to see a really sweet young gal who came all the way from goodness knows where and waited for me for a while not forgetting taking in all the Vitamin D our gorgeous Malaysian sun has to offer plus inhaling a tank full of toxic gas in the form of cigarette smoke just to have lunch with me . OH ! and also hold her bladder . XD Dearest Wong Kye Ling . So yea , yada yada took a bus with her to the LRT , bumped into a girl I met from college who was from Pandan Indah school , had the long awaited lunch at Nando's at something like 3 and went home .

It's not the end of her . I have to wake up early tomorrow to see her in the morning to help her choose an outfit for her primary school outing !? What can I say , I'm now a HELPer . woOot !! Lame , I know . But yea , just don't go around asking we HELP students while balling your eyes , "Hey ! Your college is underground wei ! Do you need HEEELP getting out ?" or something along those lines . So keep your comments to yourself ! Cos we're the only ones in the entire Klang Valley or Malaysia who will most probably survive a bomb raid from America if they decide to bomb all Malaysian educational institutions because they think that the Malaysian education system is raising terrorist children who are ready to strap bombs to themselves and run into a crowd and shout , "JIHAD !!" Hmmm.. Another conspiracy theory ? Could there be aliens living among us ? Is Nazri Aziz even human ? Is Samy Vellu , Donald Trump's clone (look at the hair) ?

Well Happy Belated Christmas and New Year to all ! Cheers mates ! XD

Yours truly

Yatta !!

2007-12-23T06:50:00.000-08:00

As the title goes YATTA !! indeed . HEROES is back ! And it is back with a new vengeance , a new plot , new twists , new powers , new anxiety inducing , nail biting and seat gripping ends to each episode and obviously new characters where some are so twisted and some are just SMOKING HOT ! seriously... I think Maya is.. ^^ But bother.. do not fear because this isn't some disclosure of what happens and this post will not spoil anything for you . I just felt like dedicating an entire post to the show which has accompanied me from even before SPM till yesterday when i finished watching the second season so I can proudly publish this post with complete confidence of encompassing the entire prospect of this new season .

This season comprises 11 gripping episodes with super awesome possum powers such as mass killing everyone , another power which is also useful for killing and the common power of not getting killed (you have to balance it out right ?) . I suggest you just get the whole season on download before you start watching because many episodes as always end at the climax ! If you're following it on Astro , you might probably die of anxiety of finding out what happens next ! It's true.. Thank goodness for the likes of Jit Yang who downloaded it and Kye Ling who I watch it with once in a while . Madness.. something like after every episode or during episodes I'd go like , " kill me !! " just because of the twists and Kye Ling , oh she'll just be her insane self !

So yea.. I'd better leave it at there just in case I lose control of my fingers and run the whole plot and turn this entire post into a spoiler for you ! Toodles then .

Yours truly

Just another day passes as it does...

2007-12-18T07:02:00.000-08:00

So here we are with many days passing by.. Day by day of course.. Means a little more high school life ebbing away and a little more college life drawing closer ! Am I anxious ? I'm ecstatic !! The past few days have been rather reminiscent and quite a roller coaster ride . Why !? I guess it's just the thought of seeing people I may not see in a long while or even catching up with people I haven't seen in ages and certain events have even occurred to my surprise but not dismay of course . Things have happened for which I have eyes and ears at the ready and now I realized I have had a heart for the event...

Enough with all the emo and "deep" stuff , a tale of two parties ! The English Language Society and Drama Team of SMK Taman SEA had a combined party !! I think I fall into both categories but oh what the heck.. It was great ! Lisa's house was super comfy and homey not to forget . The food , amazing . The company , full of laughter , what can I say ? I'll spare you the details since it was simply sooooooo FUN ! Was there for a few hours and jumped over to Clarice and Clarine's for caroling . Which was fun as well ! Wen Yi and Sharanjeet was there , it was so nice to see them again ! Food was amazing yet again , and yes it feels really good to have two dinners as many of you should know , some people eat to live but I ! Live to eat . What !?! Throughout the night there was like chun spaghetti (sauce made by Lisa , where credit is due) , really good satay and ice cream at Lisa's . I saw two stuffed turkeys at Clarine's (honestly , I have no idea who to refer to , so from time to time it will be one or the other) with of course killer cranberry sauce and mushroom gravy , awesome possum cheesecake , chicken kurma ! and a tonne more dishes..

So yea.. It was a great day of food , fun and certainly fiesta ! BUT this you may never see anywhere else but here ^^ Pn. Harminder was picking Sharanjeet up and she was all dressed up with leggings ! I mean it's not a bad thing but it's a super hip and happening thing ! HAHA well you don't always see teachers being IT so yea.. Voila ! Told you so.. But yeah.. She 's like super chun and will never be at a lost for words . Not forgetting she is capable of rendering microphones and amplifiers USELESS ! and that wasn't an understatement , in a good sense of course . That's Pn. Harminder for ya !

Guess what ? Wen Yi was bold and sweet enough and has made me super proud of for getting me a S-sized tshirt ! (I normally wear L or XL) To my glee , it fits !! Yep.. I'm still hot alright.. ^^

So with all the upward inclination of "high-ness" due to all the whacky-ness that had happened things have also happened . Things which got me thinking of well , things ! Poor Kye Ling who just got back from Japan had to endure the whole whatchamacallit and so I've channeled all my "deep insights" and "soul searching" to spare you readers from the utter drama of my mind . If any of you were to like climb into my head (not that I would let you) , you may find yourself falling into a very very thick Amazonian kinda jungle with patches of broken glass in certain areas . Its very complicated and to get to the complete understanding of me , you would have to take a straight route through the Swamp of Despair , a left through the Fields of Anguish , down the Hills of Happiness , following the yellow brick road on the Crossroads of Light and Darkness (taking the route which leads to Light of course) and you would reach the Archives of Alms . You'd find me a probable wreck and poor deluded soul only to be kept alive by His grace . I once thought that life was a breeze and the good times would roll and roll and roll once it started . I guess now I am wiser going through this horrendously spectacular week which in itself is an oxymoron . I watched Chelsea lose to Arsenal this week and that sucks . I had a freakish call right after the game where some outlandish woman just went on and on and on laughing hysterically just because Arsenal won . That woman left me gaping wide open and on that day itself I found out that for the past two years some things in my life which not many people know about had always been in God's hands and instead of being crippled , this week I've came out so much stronger than any predicament I had gone through during that unspoken journey . So I thank God and I thank the ::cough:: woman who left me shell shocked after Chelsea lost (she knows who she is) , for the new and refined iron going through its fiery furnace not to forget dear Kye Ling who got me sake (Japanese rice wine) and a tonne of support !

Yours truly

Living Life ?

2007-12-10T19:43:00.000-08:00

So I said in the previous post that I had gone to MPO on Sunday and indeed I did . I was treated by a wonderful overture by "I-can't-remember-who" and Tchaikovsky's 5th Concerto by the orchestra . Really amazing stuff ! But the soloist performance was in a word intriguing . The dude was the principal violist by the name of Giovanni Passini playing the viola concerto by Schnitke (I believe that's how it was spelt) . GOODNESS !! All 3 movements were amazingly scary and grim . You could tell that death was heavy on the concerto and the soft but steady chiming of the harpsichord added to the effect ! The soloist played with such aggression and spook one could only watch when Nicholas Pope played in The Red Violin . His bow was literally shedding right in front of the audience ! Strand after strand of hair split like it was some major hair loss which needed some Yun Nam Haircare treatment where I think around 20-30 strands of hair from his bow was literally plucked out the moment he had a minim rest or something and I am NOT exaggerating the figures ! Well all in all I thought it was an amazing performance because of the potential it had in evoking really eerie feelings inside me and I dare say the same for almost all the audience as the soloist had really mixed reception . Mostly half-hearted claps to a woman giving him a bouquet of chocolates , literally , you know the sort sold in nice nice malls which would usually put a teddy bear in it where they just put a ferrero rocher on a stick and combine a bunch and sell it for hundreds of bucks ! I met some people there who even asked my opinion on the soloist performance because he was as confused as a man waking up to some deafening clatter in the middle of the night thanks to his wife making love to some other dude in the guest room and falls of the bed and hits some china of the bedside table (obviously they had a spot of tea before..) !! And I shall comment on the final performance with a Malaysian twist where the 5th Concerto by Tchaikovsky was certainly , impeccably , beyond description and a case of AWESOME POSSUM la !! Yes Kye Ling , you inspired the last line .

So after the performance I read this book , The Prodigal Daughter by my all time favourite author , Jeffrey Howard Archer !! Mainly because I love his twists , political knowledge and even humour . It's not the sort of Dan Brown books where it is soaked and drenched with an encyclopaedia of facts where you can just go , "YES ! We know you're well read ! Get on with the plot already !" Jeffrey Archer is an amazing author where he can place a setting of his stories anywhere from the 1900's backlanes of London or to the fancy and prim settings of the rich watching tennis in the best seats of the Rod Laver Arena and my favourite is of course his impeccable ability of going into the political arena . Yes , once a debater always a debater... Nonetheless , if you haven't read any of his novels , get one ! The moment i started The Prodigal Daughter , I finished it in like one and a half days reading until 5a.m. just to finish it ! That book along with As The Crow Flies became my pillow during Sayang Camp . Haha ! It made a rather decent pillow actually . Well , I can't seem to find my other novels by him ; Not A Penny More , Not A Penny Less and Shall We Tell the President ? , I think I lent it to someone and I can't even remember who ! Haha.. Lucky feller . Oh well , the remaining novels by Jeffrey Archer which i own have been booked . So yea.. ^^ GETCH YER' OWN !!

Till then , just an utterly out of context , random suggestion , I think women should start ruling the world in place of men since they're entirely capable . If not for their undermined physical prowess , a female revolution could burst out any moment anywhere and it's not just contained to the one in America burning bras or doing a Lady Godiva strolling down town on a horse naked to prove a point , which I'm sure guys all over would be hoping for the next female revolution ! In those days my brethren , an enormous paradigm shift will happen when the masculine shall be changed to the feminine such as phrases and even places . Blackmail will be changed to blackfemail or even positions such as Prime Minister will change to Prime Ministress . So guys kick out your gender prejudices and gird your loins or you could just join them ? As they say , if you can't beat them , join them !

Yours truly

For the sake of being loyal to the blog...

2007-12-08T06:16:00.000-08:00

So... SPM has ended , my life is currently aimless , i haven't spent a full day at home since and Enchanted is an amazing show !!!
A quick run down on things.. As in really quick , went to Sunway with Yie Ern , Vicky , and Jun Fai to skate and watch Enchanted , Sayang Camp (CF) on Thursday and Friday and I just came back from 1U with Kye Ling where we watched The Heartbreak Kid (which was horrid and had an unusually wretched plot worsened with a sickening ending !) . And MPO tomorrow to watch a violist for the sake of watching some classical music right after SPM .

That's the slip alright . It's like a first-class ticket to madness and sleepless nights .

Well nothing much to elaborate and gossip about the week but Sayang Camp was amazing ! Ps Sandra who gave the message on the first day , was simply an AWESOME POSSUM !! She was hillarious and really filled with fire for God . Before I forget what she spoke about , I'll try to recollect as much as I can for your sake . She spoke on CF's theme for 2008 , Precious Promises (2Peter 1:3-4) highlighting two main points ; making a choice and not retiring from our faith .

Due to the inability of conveying the tone and body language of Ps Sandra , I'll just have to make do . We all have a choice to make , whether we're rich or poor , on cloud 9 or in utterly deep crap and even if you're 9 or 90 ! Mainly the choice is to follow God's way or to choose the way of the world . And how do we know what God wants us to do ? READ the Bible of course.. like duhh right ? (I bet you expected that) . Plus to also claim God's precious promises (which is also made known from reading the Bible..) , we have to be obedient to God ! Point is , choose God's way + read bible = claimed God's promises + being super blessed !

A young dude had came up to Ps Sandra one day and told her , "I've served in the youth for the past (goodness knows how many) years and I've like done it all serving God , now I'm 25 and I think I've contributed enough , so I think I'll retire from youth ministry." ?#?!@?#$^*&#% RETIRE ?!!?! Never retire !! There's no such thing as retiring from service to God or having faith in God cos' God has never retired and He's like a gazillion bajillion years old ! Imagine if He did ? ::gasp:: Thou art speaketh BLASPHEMY !!

So yea , that's like the tip of the iceberg of the entire message because she was sooo cool . Imagine a woman talking and she said something sarcastic , she says nothing after that and looks blankly straight for a second or two then turns to her right and suddenly BURSTS with hysterical laughter !! She rocks my socks..

That was for me the highlight of Sayang Camp and Sayang Camp turned out to be Sayang Camp with lots of Sayang-ing and Camping all the same . To more daunting matters , CF is now headed by Pn Carol !! Pn Julie had been promoted to Penolong Kanan Petang (formerly known as Penyelia Petang) . So with lots of prayer and support CF will continue to be strong if not stronger especially entering a foreign arena !

I know with all that has happened , you may have expected loads of pictures but I only took one . Oddly enough , I didn't even request for it . So this is it , I'm sure you've heard of the events that have surrounded us and it could most probably be true IF it was super melodrammatic and hillariously sweet . Well if you don't know , tough .

Le Madame Oui , Clarice who never ceases to amaze me !

Last but not least , to the sister of the girl in the picture up there , Clarbear (Clarine) , Happy Birthday !! and to Chian Hui on the 7th !! You guys may not even see this post.. but God bless ! Thanks for sitting next and behind me and giving me a blast of a year !

The birthday girls with the red cap , Clarbear and blue t-shirt , Chian Hui and the jokerholic Ickster Vickster .

And I like this picture since it shows how tall I am compared to these kids . ^^

Happy Birthday Chian Hui and Clarbear !!

Your's truly

Le Grande... First ?

2007-11-29T06:50:00.000-08:00

We've both lost each other haven't we ? I think we have , at least in a way . Things will never be the same now between us ; you and me ? I guess not . I type this in a manner which I would never talk to you again , maybe because I'm afraid of what may happen when we talk . I guess it's just difficult , it always has been . Well , if I apologize , I wouldn't know what I would be apologizing for . If i forgive you , it would be rendered useless since it just happens over and over again like a cycle . Even if you apologize to me , you may not mean it or maybe if you forgive me , you're not really sure of what it is you're forgiving me for . We once lived a dream of life together , awesome-ness , party-ing , having fun and even the simple conversation . You couldn't give it to me , not even 5 measly minutes . Why ?!!? Simple , like every famous politician in history , there is no direct or real answer . Truth is evasive , it can be interpreted in a million ways as a lawyer may perform . Just like that , you do likewise , give me crappy answers and even worse explanations to why you treated me the way you did . You know what ? I couldn't give 2 shits about the crapola you're giving to me . Not anymore .

I was thinking of starting this blog with something dark and the above has made its mark . Quite frankly , I just feel like blogging not because I want to let the entire world know what's in my head but mainly to keep in touch with the tonnes of people i may lose touch with . SPM is ending for me . It has ended for some or even most . This marks the end of my high school life and hence , the beginning of a whole new chapter . HELP college is next , hopefully with great company and great prospect , I'll kick butt ! In a good way of course.. But hey do drop in once in a while , leave a comment if you must . Religiously visit this blog ? Nah ! I'm not gonna foretell when the world's gonna end or count the number of letter A-P-O-C-A-L-Y-P-S-E in the book of Revelations to guess the year of the end of ages or some emofied drama of my love being laid bare ( depends with the situation of course ) . But hey.. do dazzle aight !

Just some random thing which i found . Well that's all for now .

Your's truly ,